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ok, i've been studying, hardcore studying, for the mcat since, eh, late december. and it's april. and i have a little over two weeks until i take the test. and it's all i can do every night to make myself study. i'm just worn out with studying. i have decided i will stop studying the wednesday before the test, about 12 days away. but, in the next 12 days, i have a lot i want to review and a few practice mcats to take.
and after i take the test, i wanna go out every night and party. well, not really. that's never been me. but, maybe i'll start going to rugby practice, or watch movies, or ride my bike. i'll stay after work late and read young adult fiction in the library. i had plans to take a bunch of classes this summer but i think i might just take one and instead ride to barton springs to swim and lay in the sun all day. really, i should be more productive with my summer than that. but i have to balance myself back out. i've been wound up so tight and working so hard for months now for this fucking test. and i gotta have a chance to really unwind. maybe the last 6 weeks of the school year will be enough and then i can get back to work over the summer.
i need a new theory on relationship, on interacting with others. ok, that's really broad and general. but as of late i've found myself in several nontraditional relationships and i just....don't have it worked out in my head how these things are supposed to go. part of me thinks, hey, that's great, no thoughts to get in the way. but instead, all of my uncertainties get in the way. especially if i'm grumpy from hormones and not enough sleep, like today. i've got my brain going too intensely in the mcat direction, though, and don't have the time or mental capacity to work out a new theory of relationship for myself, as i might normally do. i think about laminar flow and f=ma and elimination reactions and solubility products and the effects of vasopressin on the convoluted tubules of nephrons. i have equations and definitions and diagrams taped all over the walls of my apartment with more to come. i have 6 or 7 sheets i haven't put up yet and about 5 in mind that i need to sit down and make.
see? i set out to write about relationship and intimacy and it's all mcat all the time on channel jupiter. i can't wait to get this fucking test over with so i can have my brain back. at least 'til i go to med school. and then it'll never belong to me again. ah, chubs, the ride across the country next summer is gonna be one of the best things i ever did.
and i've decided i like launchcast radio.
and after i take the test, i wanna go out every night and party. well, not really. that's never been me. but, maybe i'll start going to rugby practice, or watch movies, or ride my bike. i'll stay after work late and read young adult fiction in the library. i had plans to take a bunch of classes this summer but i think i might just take one and instead ride to barton springs to swim and lay in the sun all day. really, i should be more productive with my summer than that. but i have to balance myself back out. i've been wound up so tight and working so hard for months now for this fucking test. and i gotta have a chance to really unwind. maybe the last 6 weeks of the school year will be enough and then i can get back to work over the summer.
i need a new theory on relationship, on interacting with others. ok, that's really broad and general. but as of late i've found myself in several nontraditional relationships and i just....don't have it worked out in my head how these things are supposed to go. part of me thinks, hey, that's great, no thoughts to get in the way. but instead, all of my uncertainties get in the way. especially if i'm grumpy from hormones and not enough sleep, like today. i've got my brain going too intensely in the mcat direction, though, and don't have the time or mental capacity to work out a new theory of relationship for myself, as i might normally do. i think about laminar flow and f=ma and elimination reactions and solubility products and the effects of vasopressin on the convoluted tubules of nephrons. i have equations and definitions and diagrams taped all over the walls of my apartment with more to come. i have 6 or 7 sheets i haven't put up yet and about 5 in mind that i need to sit down and make.
see? i set out to write about relationship and intimacy and it's all mcat all the time on channel jupiter. i can't wait to get this fucking test over with so i can have my brain back. at least 'til i go to med school. and then it'll never belong to me again. ah, chubs, the ride across the country next summer is gonna be one of the best things i ever did.
and i've decided i like launchcast radio.