Dont fool yourself in being something more than you are...
03/17/05
I'm back in San Antonio now. Its hard to be going back from one place to another when your not really settled yet. You feel kinda stuck in the middle. I had a good time at home. Spent a good amount of time with my mom and at home. Saw my friends and hung out. When your there you get comftorable and wish you didnt have to leave again, but thats the way it always is. I know afte r a few weeks I 'd wanna leave. Its just the fact of knowing that you dont really belong anymore where you used to belong, "home" is slipping away. The 4 days went by too fast, but its also good to back in SA.
Joey gets to brownsville today, that sucks cuz i left yesterday. He had been gone for so long,. I wanted to see how he was doing. Vero said he's in Kaleen and its not to far from here, so i'll give him a call and maybe he can stop by and visit sometime.
Today were supposed to go to Austin for the sxsw. I just wanna get there already. I really hope i get to see Tegan and Sara, if not i will be very dissapointed.
Aggg its exactly one month till my birthday. scarrrrry i dont wanna be old.
Its a wierd feeling when you dont feel comftorable in your skin. I felt that way yesterday, just strange, like your somewhere you dont belong. But it went away already, i'm cool now.
Starting Monday i'm gonna start the diet. Just tuna and hardboiled eggs for one week. I've gained weight and I dont like it. I also wanted to do yoga, but my stupid computer didnt wanna burn the video. grr. I'll see if I can find one to buy.
I dont have much to complain about and I dont like it. I feel like my journal entries are boring. I like to be dramatic and I dont have any drama to be dramatic about. Being happy is good but it isnt fun.