If it isnt penetration, then it isnt worth a kiss...
10/13/04
Today I have done more school work than I have before this whole semester. I spent like 5 hours on the stupid review for my adult psych class. I still need to study it. I better get an A on that test! Also I've been practicing my piano music. I have both tests tomorrow. :o/
I've gotten in touch with Monic again. It had been a long long time since we've spoken. Were trying to plan a day where everybody can get together. I hope we will and I hope its soon. It should be a lot f fun.
So last night......I dont even know what to think of it. I dont know if i should put my hopes on it. I dont know if it was just a moment that came so fast and left just as quickly.
It was really nice and I felt happy. He came over we had a ciggerate and we talked. He hugged me. I kissed him. I was so scared of letting him go. I just wanted to hold on and know that everything was gonna be okay again.
His intentions were unclear. Hopefully I'll see him soon.
Please dont do this to me...again...