Please bury me with it...
10/12/04
I just finished watching Pulp Fiction. That movie is awesome. I bought it yesterday with my blockbuster bucks.
Today I was a mess. I could feel it since yesterday. Its the curse girls have to deal with each month until menopause. I dont get bad cramps or sick. I get crazy mood swings. I've been crying all day and sometimes I dont even know why. I just think of something remotely sad and my eyes start pouring. Its wierd because I want to stop, but I cant. Then all of a sudden I'm ok. Then boom I'm a sea of tears again. I knew it cuz i was feeling too sad yesterday and I felt like crying. My mood is more regulated now. I stopped crying. Crazy stuff.
I have so much stuff to do for school. I cant believe its already time for mid-terms. I gotta learn all this stuff on the piano & guitar. Write a million papers and study. ay ya yai...
I couldnt do it. I paced it around and around in my head but could never come through. I wanted to so bad, but I was scared of the reaction. Today would of been perfect, but nope. I think its over and done with. It really hurts and I look for every strand of hope to speak, but something keeps it from coming out. I really hope this is how things are supposed to be and that somethign better will come along soon. I hope its not a mistake. Goodbye.