i began this messy state of love affairs...
06/21/06
so here it goes again..i'm gonna try once more to keep up with my lj now since i have a computer now...
i got a computer, and the whole world seems to revolve around it, lol, gilbert and i cant get off it.
i have gone through a couple of boys since we started hanging out at pj's, haha its easy to get drunk and just make-out with some random person, i cant say that i'm proud of it, but its intresting sometimes. besides its only been 4 guys. and whatever i might as well have some fun while i can and make up for some lost time.
i dont exactly know what i'm looking for right now, or i just havent found somebody that i feel i can honestly connect with or maybe i'm the type thats always thinking maybe theres something better, but in that case your never satisfied..so in the meantime i suppose i'll just go with the flow and see what happens. i'm waiting for that moment where i know that "thats it". secretly he's still in the back of my head, cuz thats as close to "it" as i've gotten so far, and i hate him, not really ha.
i liked aaron, it didnt work out, but thats ok. i have a lil crush on erik he seems really intresting, but we've mostly been talking online and we havent actually hung out, besides at best buy, i'm working on that, lol.
i gotta crazy asian stalker right now. i thought it was just gonna be a one-night stand sort of deal, but he called me the next day and said he wanted to hang out, which i appreciate, made me feel not so "slutty",but now he's constantly calling and texting me and its kinda scary. hes cool and a nice guy and i was begining to feel intrested, but i wanted to just start by hanging out and letting things progress on thier own, but it seems like hes got a different idea. i'll give him so more time, hopefully he wont turn into some freak.
anyways, moving on.
analuz came over and hung out and it was fun. shes real crazy. and i appreciate the fact that she drives all the way out here, cuz she lives way out there.