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i now know how it feels to be left out. i guess i kinda knew all along but i always tried to hide it. i was in denial, but now, its out in the open. i sit at home doing absolutely nothing, while my best friend is out doing something with other people. seriously, since i have nothing to do, i sit at home rewriting all my notes from my classes...for hours until its time to sleep at 830 because i have no plans for that night. i try to think when the last time that me and her hung out, just the 2 of us, and i cant really remember. maybe a week or 2. it makes me sad because we used to hang out almost every day. idk. deep down i think shes mad at me. i think to myself, what did i do? maybe its not me. its not like she asks me to do anything either. like i wrote before, things are changing. i guess i just have to face reality and live up to it. i just cant think of how life would be without the few friends that i have. to me, theyre like my saviors. from school. from my family. from everything. but why, lately, have i felt so alone and empty? im hungry, but not in a stomachache type way, but like im yearning for something and i just dont know what it is.