A Confession

[sikatokz]

This is me saying I like you
Because you might have been confused
That one moment I'm spending days with you
The next I'm rejecting your invitations
Then I send you gifts
But then I don't reply to your calls
So this is it, this is my confession
I might never be able to say this to your face
Because I'm a coward
And I'm afraid of rejection
I'm scared we might grow apart
And I don't want to think about losing you
Because we're good friends
At least that's what I think
You're there, always there to listen
Despite not being able to see each other
Or hear updates every once in a while
But we're friends, good friends
So I hope you live well
Eat healthy
And stay the cynical person you are
Be pessimistic about everything
Or sleep all day and not care about the world
You're you and that's fine
Sometimes I think it's best to remain friends
No complications, no relationship to keep up
But then I start missing you
It hurts
Don't worry, I'm not clingy
In fact I'm trying my best to forget
The way your eyes squint
Whenever I say something you find weird
The way you laugh at me
The way you smile
So this is confusing
I tell you I like you then I say I'm moving on
Doing away with these feelings
Thinking of ways to let them go
And just let us be
The same way as we were
Months ago when I last saw that grin of yours
Or last heard your voice
At least I'm telling you, right?
Right.
I like you.