a new chapter.
So (again) it's been a long time since I've written any sort of blog entry... and while I honestly lack the give-a-damn to stay current on this type of thing anymore, given the recent changes in the continuing adventure of my life, I felt like one was necessary.... so here goes.
I knew at an early age that I was different. And when I say that, I don't mean it the way a lot of people do... sure, I was a misfit growing up... sure I was a geek, wasn't popular, was picked on, and that led to my own little "rebellions" and such in embracing alternative culture, blah blah blah...
but that's not what I'm talking about.
When I say that I'm different, it's because I just honestly, truly am... I don't look very different, nor do I care to at my age... I don't need some uniform to proclaim this... I don't own any latex or vinyl clothing... I don't have piercings... I've never even worn anything that resembles a gas mask... or hair extensions... or whatever. Not that I've got anything against any of that stuff... I actually think that stuff's pretty cool... it just doesn't work for me. What I mean is, I think differently than most people. I see things differently. I feel things differently. And I wish that were just a misconception... you know, me overanalyzing things... but it's not. I have a lot of trouble relating to other people... I can see their point of view... I can understand them perfectly... I just know that's not who I am.
It's one of my biggest faults... I don't really, truly fit in with most people on any real level. Now sure, I've got tons of acquaintances, and people I consider friends... but it seems to be very difficult for me to form actual close bonds and friendships with people... not for lack of trying... actually every single person I meet and interact with, I seriously, honestly try to become close friends with.... life is short... and I can always use a few more real friends before I punch out permanently. It just 9 times out of 10, doesn't work that way... sure people like me ok... but I rarely become closer than a casual friend.... I guess for most people I'm not exactly "best friend material"... never been sure why, but that's the way it is.
Now, given that fault I just described... it's actually pretty ironic.... that one of my greatest attributes is my ability to love. I only wish more people would give me the chance to show that ability and form those close bonds... and could look past whatever it might be that makes me appear as more of the networking acquaintance (slash) "when I see you we're cool" sort of friend, than a real one.
That being said... the very few people I *can* claim as some of my true friends... some of my best friends... I greatly cherish.... to absolutely zero end.
I know I'm rambling here... I tend to do that sometimes... but I do have a point... and my point is this:
Stiff Magazine recently parted ways with Single Cell Productions. There were some minor creative differences... but it was mostly just a couple people who had entirely too much on their plates and needed to focus on their own endeavors... as well as myself. These things happen... it's called life. That being said... I've stepped away from Single Cell Productions.... and it's nothing personal. There are a lot of people in Single Cell from the very top of the organization on down that I *do* consider to be those aforementioned true, real friends... and I honestly hope it stays that way... even in my absence.
I'm sure there's a lot of people out there who are probably going to assume a lot of things... and most likely come up with these big huge theories on this whole situation... and to be honest... that's a part of why I stepped away... because that's entertainment... that's the biz... and that's the scene. I mentioned earlier that I'm different... and that includes being very different than a lot of the general masses who thrive on this type of (excuse me for even using this word) drama. The other part of why I stepped away from it is very simple... I've got a magazine to run... a healthy relationship to maintain... and most importantly, a home & family to take care of.
My overall point in all of this is: I joined up with a production company and dedicated a chapter in my life to nightlife entertainment... to forge real worthwhile friendships... not for fame, money or whatever. It's always been about friendship to me... and regardless of where I work, how much I have on my plate, or how far away I may be... my love for those friendships and those few good people will never end.
-Dave
I knew at an early age that I was different. And when I say that, I don't mean it the way a lot of people do... sure, I was a misfit growing up... sure I was a geek, wasn't popular, was picked on, and that led to my own little "rebellions" and such in embracing alternative culture, blah blah blah...
but that's not what I'm talking about.
When I say that I'm different, it's because I just honestly, truly am... I don't look very different, nor do I care to at my age... I don't need some uniform to proclaim this... I don't own any latex or vinyl clothing... I don't have piercings... I've never even worn anything that resembles a gas mask... or hair extensions... or whatever. Not that I've got anything against any of that stuff... I actually think that stuff's pretty cool... it just doesn't work for me. What I mean is, I think differently than most people. I see things differently. I feel things differently. And I wish that were just a misconception... you know, me overanalyzing things... but it's not. I have a lot of trouble relating to other people... I can see their point of view... I can understand them perfectly... I just know that's not who I am.
It's one of my biggest faults... I don't really, truly fit in with most people on any real level. Now sure, I've got tons of acquaintances, and people I consider friends... but it seems to be very difficult for me to form actual close bonds and friendships with people... not for lack of trying... actually every single person I meet and interact with, I seriously, honestly try to become close friends with.... life is short... and I can always use a few more real friends before I punch out permanently. It just 9 times out of 10, doesn't work that way... sure people like me ok... but I rarely become closer than a casual friend.... I guess for most people I'm not exactly "best friend material"... never been sure why, but that's the way it is.
Now, given that fault I just described... it's actually pretty ironic.... that one of my greatest attributes is my ability to love. I only wish more people would give me the chance to show that ability and form those close bonds... and could look past whatever it might be that makes me appear as more of the networking acquaintance (slash) "when I see you we're cool" sort of friend, than a real one.
That being said... the very few people I *can* claim as some of my true friends... some of my best friends... I greatly cherish.... to absolutely zero end.
I know I'm rambling here... I tend to do that sometimes... but I do have a point... and my point is this:
Stiff Magazine recently parted ways with Single Cell Productions. There were some minor creative differences... but it was mostly just a couple people who had entirely too much on their plates and needed to focus on their own endeavors... as well as myself. These things happen... it's called life. That being said... I've stepped away from Single Cell Productions.... and it's nothing personal. There are a lot of people in Single Cell from the very top of the organization on down that I *do* consider to be those aforementioned true, real friends... and I honestly hope it stays that way... even in my absence.
I'm sure there's a lot of people out there who are probably going to assume a lot of things... and most likely come up with these big huge theories on this whole situation... and to be honest... that's a part of why I stepped away... because that's entertainment... that's the biz... and that's the scene. I mentioned earlier that I'm different... and that includes being very different than a lot of the general masses who thrive on this type of (excuse me for even using this word) drama. The other part of why I stepped away from it is very simple... I've got a magazine to run... a healthy relationship to maintain... and most importantly, a home & family to take care of.
My overall point in all of this is: I joined up with a production company and dedicated a chapter in my life to nightlife entertainment... to forge real worthwhile friendships... not for fame, money or whatever. It's always been about friendship to me... and regardless of where I work, how much I have on my plate, or how far away I may be... my love for those friendships and those few good people will never end.
-Dave