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[Filter: Private | Language: Dutch]
I hate ice baths...
I am sure that I upset some people with my decision and I never meant to hurt her. I'll take the blame. It was me who ended things, after all...so why not blame me. But I do love her. I love her so much. The thought of letting her go - knowing that is what I decided to do - it hurts. I miss her. She won't ever leave my heart. But having her say that my love isn't as strong, just how could she think that?
How. It makes me numb that she believes something like that. But I refuse to lose it again; that behavior of mine from earlier was uncalled for but it has just been so stressful lately. So many negative emotions, so much self-doubt, had just kept piling up and I had just exploded from all the thoughts and things. Like I told Dragomir, maybe I needed that breakdown, as odd as it may sound.
It wasn't right of me. Not after ...
Noelle. I am glad that I had gotten to know you, that you had been my Knight. My faith in you never wavered. Please rest in peace. We will win this for you. We will win it for everyone else. If you are watching us, please know that you were a wonderful Knight and a very strong young woman. I'll miss you, Noelle. You were like a little sister to me and I love you.
[Filter: Berlin Black Order]
...you're all aware of what has happened recently.
We lost the Sigil on his death date and he fell into White Order hands, but that is no one's fault. We will protect the next three Sigils when they awaken. But please do not let them children. Not again.[gone] We will do it and we can do it. The White Order will not be getting them. We won't let them win.
And ... if you have read what the General of Berlin's White Order had said to us, then you all know that Noelle is no longer with us. I cannot say that I have the details on what actually happened to her. But. We are down a Knight.
I want you all to know that we did the best that we could and that we will do better in the future. While this war has been hard on us all, we've all suffered from it one way or another, we will get stronger and we will win it.
I am your General. Nothing will hold us back.
We'll fight for Noelle. We will fight for Acel. And we will fight for everyone else, especially those who are no longer with us. We will fight and we will win for them. I have faith in all of you.
Also, please take care of yourselves and stay safe. I can't protect all of you at once...as much as I wish I could.[gone]
I hate ice baths...
I am sure that I upset some people with my decision and I never meant to hurt her. I'll take the blame. It was me who ended things, after all...so why not blame me. But I do love her. I love her so much. The thought of letting her go - knowing that is what I decided to do - it hurts. I miss her. She won't ever leave my heart. But having her say that my love isn't as strong, just how could she think that?
How. It makes me numb that she believes something like that. But I refuse to lose it again; that behavior of mine from earlier was uncalled for but it has just been so stressful lately. So many negative emotions, so much self-doubt, had just kept piling up and I had just exploded from all the thoughts and things. Like I told Dragomir, maybe I needed that breakdown, as odd as it may sound.
It wasn't right of me. Not after ...
Noelle. I am glad that I had gotten to know you, that you had been my Knight. My faith in you never wavered. Please rest in peace. We will win this for you. We will win it for everyone else. If you are watching us, please know that you were a wonderful Knight and a very strong young woman. I'll miss you, Noelle. You were like a little sister to me and I love you.
[Filter: Berlin Black Order]
...you're all aware of what has happened recently.
We lost the Sigil on his death date and he fell into White Order hands, but that is no one's fault. We will protect the next three Sigils when they awaken. But please do not let them children. Not again.[gone] We will do it and we can do it. The White Order will not be getting them. We won't let them win.
And ... if you have read what the General of Berlin's White Order had said to us, then you all know that Noelle is no longer with us. I cannot say that I have the details on what actually happened to her. But. We are down a Knight.
I want you all to know that we did the best that we could and that we will do better in the future. While this war has been hard on us all, we've all suffered from it one way or another, we will get stronger and we will win it.
I am your General. Nothing will hold us back.
We'll fight for Noelle. We will fight for Acel. And we will fight for everyone else, especially those who are no longer with us. We will fight and we will win for them. I have faith in all of you.
Also, please take care of yourselves and stay safe. I can't protect all of you at once...as much as I wish I could.[gone]