This has happened before.
I'm using my last month in LA as a way to finally get up and out--to do all the things I've meant to do for how many years now.
I was thinking of it in the car, and kind of beating myself up about it. I had been thinking of it negatively--like only now that I'm leaving am I getting the motivation to doing all of these things. Then something struck me while driving this afternoon--I'm still not sure what it was, but it got me thinking in a much more positive direction. Better late than never. It's stuff I've wanted to do for a while, and now I'm doing them. I'm getting over my fears and insecurities one tiny tiny step at a time. And if those tiny steps are happening at the end of my time in LA, so be it.
I had wanted to go to The Edison for about a year and a half to two years now. Since I first heard about it. I referred to it to Danny as 'finally being able to go.' He gave me shit about it--like what was I so busy doing that was interrupting my plans? It wasn't any physical thing that was preventing me from going, I just wasn't able to get up the courage to go to a club. And after I hung up the phone did I realize that it was me who had been preventing myself from going all along. The fact that it was amazing helped in the end. So thanks to Jas and Josh who accompanied me.
This afternoon I attended a Bollywood dance class. It was great! The only way it could have been more than everything I hoped it would be, is that if that one girl didn't stand right in front of me. I mean come on--it's a mirrored dance room! You couldn't not notice blocking someone's view! I would have downloaded some major Bollywood hits as soon as I got home if I had my computer. In a vain attempt to keep the theme going in the car ride home, I hoped for Indian music on KCRW but the closest I could get was mariachi.
I was thinking of it in the car, and kind of beating myself up about it. I had been thinking of it negatively--like only now that I'm leaving am I getting the motivation to doing all of these things. Then something struck me while driving this afternoon--I'm still not sure what it was, but it got me thinking in a much more positive direction. Better late than never. It's stuff I've wanted to do for a while, and now I'm doing them. I'm getting over my fears and insecurities one tiny tiny step at a time. And if those tiny steps are happening at the end of my time in LA, so be it.
I had wanted to go to The Edison for about a year and a half to two years now. Since I first heard about it. I referred to it to Danny as 'finally being able to go.' He gave me shit about it--like what was I so busy doing that was interrupting my plans? It wasn't any physical thing that was preventing me from going, I just wasn't able to get up the courage to go to a club. And after I hung up the phone did I realize that it was me who had been preventing myself from going all along. The fact that it was amazing helped in the end. So thanks to Jas and Josh who accompanied me.
This afternoon I attended a Bollywood dance class. It was great! The only way it could have been more than everything I hoped it would be, is that if that one girl didn't stand right in front of me. I mean come on--it's a mirrored dance room! You couldn't not notice blocking someone's view! I would have downloaded some major Bollywood hits as soon as I got home if I had my computer. In a vain attempt to keep the theme going in the car ride home, I hoped for Indian music on KCRW but the closest I could get was mariachi.