PLAIN ENGLISH
I need some space from issues, that relatively, are not big.
I have big shit to deal with at the moment .
Shit that is far more important than I could imagine.
Shit I don't talk about on FB or LJ or AIM or Twitter b/c it is my shit and I am dealing with it.
If you don't know what the "shit" is or are a part of the "shit", then expect that you may not the first person I am going to talk to or email.
If I don't respond as fast as liked, please, for a moment, consider perhaps something is taking priority. Consider that perhaps, an appropriate response may require time and thought. It has nothing to do with anyone personally. It has nothing to do with respect for any one person.
At the moment shit is the priority list for my energy and sanity.
[Edited 11:09 PM] To the one person who I have been communicating with and I believe you may not be understanding me, I'm hoping this avenue of expression will help clarify and foster, at least some understanding.
For the love of Christ and Buddha and Krishna and Haniman and the stupid fucking octopus thing on FB:
Please back off.
I don't need sympathy
I don't need inquires
I don't need added stress
I don't need ultimatums
I have bigger shit to deal with.
Please just back away.
Let me do my work - which has not suffered
Let me do my thinking - which takes time
Let me do my planning - which takes patience
Let me keep on my barrings - the course is finally clearing
All my friends have so much of their own shit - it just sucks, it really sucks and I wish and pray for better but that doesn't pay the mortgage or medical bills or feed the family or pay for a car or plan a will. There is so much more that needs focus in all our lives. Some we can lean on each other for, some we can not.
I respect and understand that the people around me are going through so very very much and it is sucking the energy out of everyone.
Please, offer me the same respect.