Brian's Top Songs of 2008: #3
Quick explanation: a few weeks back, I started thinking about what songs affected me the most this past year, and I decided to blog a bit about the top few. The number I was going to do grew and shrank, but in the end, three seemed to be enough. These songs didn't have to be released during the calendar year, just have a large influence on me during the time.
Number three is "On the Rise," from Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog:
Why?
To be honest, I originally chose the finale of the program, "Everything You Ever," but after thinking it over a little more, I thought that this song had more influence on my life. The song comes at the beginning of the second act of the program, when the title character discovers that his secret crush is in love with his enemy, while at the same time, the crush is falling for Dr. Horrible's enemy, Captain Hammer. Watch it, trust me - it's awesome.
How does this relate to me? Well, it's no secret that I went through a bad breakup during the year, and when that was over, I was better off but not very happy. Was it necessary? Absolutely. Was it easy? Not in the slightest. I was down on love, down on happiness, and I had the foolish thought that I didn't deserve any more chances to have that amazing life with an amazing companion. Although I maintained a positive exterior, inside I wasn't a very happy person, and I was more than willing to retreat into my shell and live an angry, solitary life.
And yet... and yet...
Things were so much better for me. Even then, when I was so internally unhappy, I knew that. I'd been bottled up for years, and I was finally getting back to the person, and the activities, that made me happy. I was rediscovering life, and I was loving what I was finding. I started writing again, I went out with friends, I was working on film projects...
And yes, it didn't take long before I met someone new. Someone so wonderful, and we were awkward around each other for months. It was the beautiful (and, at times, frustrating) ballet of "does she like me? does he like me?" that so many new couples dance, and it had been a long time since I'd felt that excitement. But she was amazing and understanding and caring, and it wasn't long before we decided that we'd give it a shot.
This song was more for that in-between time, that time when half of me was angry at love, and the other half was hopeful that maybe I'd found something really special...
But that's more of a story for the other two songs on the list.
Number three is "On the Rise," from Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog:
Click to viewWhy?
To be honest, I originally chose the finale of the program, "Everything You Ever," but after thinking it over a little more, I thought that this song had more influence on my life. The song comes at the beginning of the second act of the program, when the title character discovers that his secret crush is in love with his enemy, while at the same time, the crush is falling for Dr. Horrible's enemy, Captain Hammer. Watch it, trust me - it's awesome.
How does this relate to me? Well, it's no secret that I went through a bad breakup during the year, and when that was over, I was better off but not very happy. Was it necessary? Absolutely. Was it easy? Not in the slightest. I was down on love, down on happiness, and I had the foolish thought that I didn't deserve any more chances to have that amazing life with an amazing companion. Although I maintained a positive exterior, inside I wasn't a very happy person, and I was more than willing to retreat into my shell and live an angry, solitary life.
And yet... and yet...
Things were so much better for me. Even then, when I was so internally unhappy, I knew that. I'd been bottled up for years, and I was finally getting back to the person, and the activities, that made me happy. I was rediscovering life, and I was loving what I was finding. I started writing again, I went out with friends, I was working on film projects...
And yes, it didn't take long before I met someone new. Someone so wonderful, and we were awkward around each other for months. It was the beautiful (and, at times, frustrating) ballet of "does she like me? does he like me?" that so many new couples dance, and it had been a long time since I'd felt that excitement. But she was amazing and understanding and caring, and it wasn't long before we decided that we'd give it a shot.
This song was more for that in-between time, that time when half of me was angry at love, and the other half was hopeful that maybe I'd found something really special...
But that's more of a story for the other two songs on the list.