feeling hopeless in my home...
didn't go to school. i got message from marcus earlier, he said jose's there today.
maybe i should have gone...
i dunno. i woke up this morning and just felt sick to my stomach and i just...i couldn't go to school. i guess i just don't want to deal with anything. too scurred. lol.
this evening i'm gonna go over to jeremy's to help him with the kids, he and nessa have to be out of her mom's house on thursday, so jerm's gonna do some packing. what sucks most of all is that the duplex where jerm and nessa are moving won't be ready til next week, so from thurday on they (jerm, nessa, ari and victoria) will be staying at my moms. eeep.
i couldn't sleep last night so i lit a candle (kinda ironic that it's a St.Michael candle...) and just prayed that i'd be able to handle whatever has to happen.
sadly i promised to fast, but ate this morning. i know it's too late but i won't eat for the rest of the day...i dunno, i always feel weird when i promise to fast...it seems kinda strange (this from the girl who promised to stop cutting and not cut her hair til she gets married...) lol. i dunno. fasting is just different. i dunno, it's hard to explain.
i did decide something(here's the part that makes no sense, but watch and see if i don't do it!) if it is over between j and i, nvm what i promised, i'm cutting my hair again...
yeah, don't ask. lol