drama! lol
"don't wanna try don't wanna try, about just had enough, it's been a rough road baby, just let it go,...tell me what's the use of holding on, when all we do is hurt our love"
i don't know why i put "lol" up there, this is actually not funny at all, it just plain sucks. i think i'm trying to keep level though, we all know that when i fall i tend to do really stupid things and make everything worse, so i'm trying to avoid that.
anyway
jose wasn't at school today, which is prolly a good thing, considering the way i was thinking all day. at lunch i wrote jose this letter and it's so...i dunno, i'm scared i won't be able to give it to him, but i know i need to because it's all true. and i'm so tired of feeling stupid. lol. it's just, i dunno, the same old shit. i never see him and i feel like i'm being foolish if i keep going in this relationship. it's like i'm being played with...
no matter what i decide to do i'm gonna lose. if i leave him i know myself well enough to know that i'm gonna miss him and want him back, but i have too much pride to go crawling back to anyone, so basically unless he changes and actually DOES SOMETHING, if/when i leave, that's it. the end of that. but if i stay nothing's ever gonna change and i'm just gonna keep feeling like shit.
i remember when MG broke up with Monica and she didn't want to, but MG said it needed to happen...she needed to learn from it or something like that....and that was really the end of them.
i don't know why i put "lol" up there, this is actually not funny at all, it just plain sucks. i think i'm trying to keep level though, we all know that when i fall i tend to do really stupid things and make everything worse, so i'm trying to avoid that.
anyway
jose wasn't at school today, which is prolly a good thing, considering the way i was thinking all day. at lunch i wrote jose this letter and it's so...i dunno, i'm scared i won't be able to give it to him, but i know i need to because it's all true. and i'm so tired of feeling stupid. lol. it's just, i dunno, the same old shit. i never see him and i feel like i'm being foolish if i keep going in this relationship. it's like i'm being played with...
no matter what i decide to do i'm gonna lose. if i leave him i know myself well enough to know that i'm gonna miss him and want him back, but i have too much pride to go crawling back to anyone, so basically unless he changes and actually DOES SOMETHING, if/when i leave, that's it. the end of that. but if i stay nothing's ever gonna change and i'm just gonna keep feeling like shit.
i remember when MG broke up with Monica and she didn't want to, but MG said it needed to happen...she needed to learn from it or something like that....and that was really the end of them.