youth
I often think about how I have a lot of growing up to do. At my age, I take pride in being very aware of myself, however, being someone to demands organization and perfection, I can't help pointing out my flaws and wanting to work on them.
One: Drama.
Among the things that make me a good news editor is this obnoxious craving I have for drama. For instance, last week when we found out that the AAUP contract was rejected by the professors' vote for the first time in the union's history, I nearly cried I was so excited - because it makes for great news. But in my personal life, I walked into this year saying no drama. I tell myself when it mounts, "no mo," but inevitably I end up being roped in, lassoed in. And being overwhelmed by that is never good: It always makes me lose sight of what's important in my life. But I think a lot of that has to do with the people with whom you surround yourself: Since J and I have pretty much stopped talking, I've noticed a great release of that daily, obnoxious drama. So, since then, I've been consciously working on making that relief more regular.
Today when T and I were talking, and I felt a fight coming on, I wrote a response that was largely capitalized and included "fuck" repetatively. However, once I thought about it and decided that that would be encouraging (if not creating) drama, I refrained. I responded, simply, with "I don't think we should have this discussion right now" and climbed into bed.
I climbed into bed, put my arms into my snuggie, and decided that I had made the right decision. That's the goal, think before I rashly call someone "a fucking cunt" and not let other people's ignorance bring me down! (Yes, an exclamation point is necessary; this is a revelation)
So I'm working on growing up. I'll keep you posted.
One: Drama.
Among the things that make me a good news editor is this obnoxious craving I have for drama. For instance, last week when we found out that the AAUP contract was rejected by the professors' vote for the first time in the union's history, I nearly cried I was so excited - because it makes for great news. But in my personal life, I walked into this year saying no drama. I tell myself when it mounts, "no mo," but inevitably I end up being roped in, lassoed in. And being overwhelmed by that is never good: It always makes me lose sight of what's important in my life. But I think a lot of that has to do with the people with whom you surround yourself: Since J and I have pretty much stopped talking, I've noticed a great release of that daily, obnoxious drama. So, since then, I've been consciously working on making that relief more regular.
Today when T and I were talking, and I felt a fight coming on, I wrote a response that was largely capitalized and included "fuck" repetatively. However, once I thought about it and decided that that would be encouraging (if not creating) drama, I refrained. I responded, simply, with "I don't think we should have this discussion right now" and climbed into bed.
I climbed into bed, put my arms into my snuggie, and decided that I had made the right decision. That's the goal, think before I rashly call someone "a fucking cunt" and not let other people's ignorance bring me down! (Yes, an exclamation point is necessary; this is a revelation)
So I'm working on growing up. I'll keep you posted.