a little insight?
i did a counseling session w/MM last night, and i think i gained a little insight into the relationship thang, & my confused/lack of feelings: i feel suspicious because i can't find anything wrong with T! in past relationships, even long-term ones, i probably knew at least subconsciously that it wouldn't work out in the long run. and if someone liked me but i didn't like them, or felt too overwhelmed by their liking of me, i could easily find some reason to not like them. but this time i have somebody who's ready, willing, and able to hook up with me for a long time, and i can't really find anything wrong with him. isnt' that weird? i keep second-guessing myself, but i keep coming up empty-handed.
anyway, in a couple days we're set to take a roadtrip to PA for X's annual xmas party. that oughta be a trip. T and i both are taking a four-day weekend, and aside from thanksgiving, which didn't count since we were visiting people, it'll be the first time we have the same days off. for ONCE, maybe we can sleep in together and not wake up to one of our alarms. at least on friday.
anyway, in a couple days we're set to take a roadtrip to PA for X's annual xmas party. that oughta be a trip. T and i both are taking a four-day weekend, and aside from thanksgiving, which didn't count since we were visiting people, it'll be the first time we have the same days off. for ONCE, maybe we can sleep in together and not wake up to one of our alarms. at least on friday.