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I was wondering when I'd get to the point where my "journal" or "diary" would cause problems. I don't use a paper one since I am always near a computor and I can't really lose something I type online. This is how I organize my thoughts and get off of my chest things I feel. I don't really care who reads this, but if you don't like what you see DON'T READ. Simple. Your choice. Yes, I moan and complain and bitch in here, but it's how I get it out of my system. Though that doesn't ALWAYS work. I was raised to keep my mouth shut, and I do. Maybe that's a bad thing, but who's to judge? Sinde I DO keep my mouth shut to everyone but the man I trust the most, I open up in my journal. I can't feel sorry for something I type in here, since it is how I feel. I won't be sorry for how I feel. Just WHY I feel that way. Most of the stuff in here won't be happy, since I don't have as much of a need to get my thoughts in order when I am happy. And I sure as hell don't ask for pitty. I don't want it. If anything, I wouldn't mind understanding. So...anyway...
My sleeping is just way off schedual. Partly because of my job, partly because I have too many things running around in my mind. The past couple of days have been weird, and stressful. Jay and I might hit the bar again this weekend. God knows we could use it. Well I can say one good thing about the past few days, it brought Jason and I closer together. A better understanding of each other. Marriage is a lifelong learning process, and we are sure learning. Not that I am an expert or anything. Just gaining experience little by little. When I step back and think on it, it gives me a warm fuzzy to think about being married to another person. Shareing the joys and...cough cough...hardships of a life together. Okay, I am being kind mushy, but this is how it sounds when I feel content...and a bit sleep deprived. RJ is gone to college. It's funny how you communicate more with someone after they are gone. He and I have been e-mailing each other almost daily. I know he's kinda homesick so maybe that will help a bit. I guess that's all I have today.
My sleeping is just way off schedual. Partly because of my job, partly because I have too many things running around in my mind. The past couple of days have been weird, and stressful. Jay and I might hit the bar again this weekend. God knows we could use it. Well I can say one good thing about the past few days, it brought Jason and I closer together. A better understanding of each other. Marriage is a lifelong learning process, and we are sure learning. Not that I am an expert or anything. Just gaining experience little by little. When I step back and think on it, it gives me a warm fuzzy to think about being married to another person. Shareing the joys and...cough cough...hardships of a life together. Okay, I am being kind mushy, but this is how it sounds when I feel content...and a bit sleep deprived. RJ is gone to college. It's funny how you communicate more with someone after they are gone. He and I have been e-mailing each other almost daily. I know he's kinda homesick so maybe that will help a bit. I guess that's all I have today.