You make me smile, baby stay for a while now
Okay so is it bad that growing up I was extremely shy, and still to this day I am very shy. I'm afraid to try new things and go to different places by myself. I dunno how I'm gonna survive out on my own. I'm taking a speech class to get myself back in the groove of school and I absolutely hate it. Our next speech has to be atleast 5 mins long. I couldnt even stand up there for a minute and talk. My voice was shaky along with my knees and whole entire body for that matter. How can someone be so outgoing in front of a classroom of ppl they have never met? I think the reason I am the way I am all ties back to my middle school years. I got teased constantly for just being me. It got to the point where my self-esteem was so low I didnt wanna be here anymore. How selfish is that?
Tomorrow I have to go to a vet doctors and interview a Vet Tech for my speech. I'm nervous, I dont like doing these types of things and I guess the way to handle it and get better at it would be to just keep doing things like this. Keep putting myself out there and not worrying so much about how other perceive me.
A recent argument with a "friend" has got me thinking about myself and her. I honestly feel sorry for her. She has no clue whats going on and she assumes that everyone is talking about her all the time. Not only that, but she lets it interfere with her friendships, and lets her paranoia take over to point where she starts to believe it. But at the same time, she was a shitty friend so honestly its her loss. I hope she takes a nice long look at herself and realizes that if she keeps it up, she will die alone.
I've gotta get started on some school work, holla!
Tomorrow I have to go to a vet doctors and interview a Vet Tech for my speech. I'm nervous, I dont like doing these types of things and I guess the way to handle it and get better at it would be to just keep doing things like this. Keep putting myself out there and not worrying so much about how other perceive me.
A recent argument with a "friend" has got me thinking about myself and her. I honestly feel sorry for her. She has no clue whats going on and she assumes that everyone is talking about her all the time. Not only that, but she lets it interfere with her friendships, and lets her paranoia take over to point where she starts to believe it. But at the same time, she was a shitty friend so honestly its her loss. I hope she takes a nice long look at herself and realizes that if she keeps it up, she will die alone.
I've gotta get started on some school work, holla!