Get me out of this place, before I cause more damage
Despite being hella tired, I woke up 15 mins before 8. Yes I am awesome! I love waking up early and sun shinny mornings. Its beauty right in my backyard. I've been thinking alot lately about my life.
I wanna get the hell out of wal-mart. The only good thing that has come from that job is the fact that it made me realize that I could never ever work a shitty ass job for the rest of my life. I mean my old job was a fucking gem compared this shit. And I'm so tired of everyone taking it so seriously. I dunno why but I really dont think its that big of a job. Even if you are a dept manager I dont think its that big of a deal. And its really funny like when the dumbest shit happens everyone flips, but when like big shit happens everyone blows it off. And I'm so tired of everyone talking about eachother. I'm not gonna lie, I like to gossip. I'm a girl, its what 99.9% of women in the whole entire world do. But its all I hear about all day. Like OMG this person did this and OMG she did WHHHHAAAATTT?!?! I'm over it. and yeah I have a couple of friends at work, but I dont really know if I can trust them. I've already found out that one of these ppl have been going behind my other friends back and telling a manager all this shit that this other girl was saying. I dunno, thats a lil shady and def made me think twice about what I say to her. Yeah, I know I should have known but I like to think the better of ppl and not make conclusions about someone bases on what others tell me. LOL my bro gets so pissed that I'm kinda involved in the drama but seriously, I'm a girl. Nuff said.
I wanna travel so bad. and I wanna get a new learning experience just see different places and meet different ppl. I love Baltimore and I wouldnt wanna live anywhere else, but I want a different atmospher. I'm gonan ask today if I can get vacation time and if I can I'm gonna find anyone to go away with. So what if its OC it'll be nice to get away for a while.
I'm def going back to school and I wanna go back TODAY! But I cant. I know that if I go back in the summer my ass wont be doing any work. Though I'm afraid if I wait till the fall I wont get my ass to do it, but honestly I would rather not do it, then do it, fail and waste my money. and I was just thinking about how I wanna join the vet tech program which the program is a 2 year program, but I need to enter the program in the fall... which means I will be in school for another 3 years. I dunno if I'm okay with that. Honestly I'm a lil embarrassed about it but there is no doubt in my mind that its worth it. and I would love to be able to save my money and pay for my own classes coz then I wont have that burden of my parents on my ass.
I've been drinking waay too much. LOL which part of my thinks is normal but another part of me is like oh hell no get it together girlfriend. Good thing is, I wont be going out this weekend. I'm working till 10 tonight, and tomorrow night I'm staying in coz I want to get up early to spend Easter morning with my family, coz I gotta fucking work on Easter?!?! seriously, thats some fucked up shit. I dunno I wonder who the hell is gonna come in there on easter. Its so ridiculous. Like I said, the job is a shit hole and not that serious so why the hell are we open on Easter? ugh! I dont wanna work today!!! Sometimes I wish on my way to work, like I would get into a car accident. LOL yeah its that bad.
I'm gonna go, I only have like an hour before hell starts.
I wanna get the hell out of wal-mart. The only good thing that has come from that job is the fact that it made me realize that I could never ever work a shitty ass job for the rest of my life. I mean my old job was a fucking gem compared this shit. And I'm so tired of everyone taking it so seriously. I dunno why but I really dont think its that big of a job. Even if you are a dept manager I dont think its that big of a deal. And its really funny like when the dumbest shit happens everyone flips, but when like big shit happens everyone blows it off. And I'm so tired of everyone talking about eachother. I'm not gonna lie, I like to gossip. I'm a girl, its what 99.9% of women in the whole entire world do. But its all I hear about all day. Like OMG this person did this and OMG she did WHHHHAAAATTT?!?! I'm over it. and yeah I have a couple of friends at work, but I dont really know if I can trust them. I've already found out that one of these ppl have been going behind my other friends back and telling a manager all this shit that this other girl was saying. I dunno, thats a lil shady and def made me think twice about what I say to her. Yeah, I know I should have known but I like to think the better of ppl and not make conclusions about someone bases on what others tell me. LOL my bro gets so pissed that I'm kinda involved in the drama but seriously, I'm a girl. Nuff said.
I wanna travel so bad. and I wanna get a new learning experience just see different places and meet different ppl. I love Baltimore and I wouldnt wanna live anywhere else, but I want a different atmospher. I'm gonan ask today if I can get vacation time and if I can I'm gonna find anyone to go away with. So what if its OC it'll be nice to get away for a while.
I'm def going back to school and I wanna go back TODAY! But I cant. I know that if I go back in the summer my ass wont be doing any work. Though I'm afraid if I wait till the fall I wont get my ass to do it, but honestly I would rather not do it, then do it, fail and waste my money. and I was just thinking about how I wanna join the vet tech program which the program is a 2 year program, but I need to enter the program in the fall... which means I will be in school for another 3 years. I dunno if I'm okay with that. Honestly I'm a lil embarrassed about it but there is no doubt in my mind that its worth it. and I would love to be able to save my money and pay for my own classes coz then I wont have that burden of my parents on my ass.
I've been drinking waay too much. LOL which part of my thinks is normal but another part of me is like oh hell no get it together girlfriend. Good thing is, I wont be going out this weekend. I'm working till 10 tonight, and tomorrow night I'm staying in coz I want to get up early to spend Easter morning with my family, coz I gotta fucking work on Easter?!?! seriously, thats some fucked up shit. I dunno I wonder who the hell is gonna come in there on easter. Its so ridiculous. Like I said, the job is a shit hole and not that serious so why the hell are we open on Easter? ugh! I dont wanna work today!!! Sometimes I wish on my way to work, like I would get into a car accident. LOL yeah its that bad.
I'm gonna go, I only have like an hour before hell starts.