dont cry a tear for me now, baby
I've been doing alot of thinking lately about everything going on in my life. I'm having a hard time of letting go of a past relationship. Its wierd coz right after we broke up we stopped talking for like a month, then finally I went back to school and we started talking again. I realized last night that its time for me to move on and to get over him. I've been so mean to him because of the way he treated me and I dont like having that feeling that he got to me, and he knows it. I think the best thing to do right now, is to stop talking to him.
I also have been thinking about school obviously. I stopped going and now my brother knows. He makes me feel guilty about it everyday and its only because he's happy that finally I've done something wrong and its not him. I dunno whats gonna happen if I fail outta essex, that will be pathetic. But I can get myself on the ball, I need to do that because I need to get my job started, and finally start living.
I've also realized that whenever I'm feeling down about life and what not, if I go to chruch or specifically Bible Study, I learn alot about myself and I realize alot of things. Like last night we were talking and this lady was saying about how she has doubts sometimes. That just surprised me so much because here I am thinking that evetyone sitting around me is 100% positive that there is a God, but I guess I was wrong. So its cool to see that even the most religious people can have doubts. I really hope that someday I can become more religious because that is my ultimate goal in life!
I also have been thinking about school obviously. I stopped going and now my brother knows. He makes me feel guilty about it everyday and its only because he's happy that finally I've done something wrong and its not him. I dunno whats gonna happen if I fail outta essex, that will be pathetic. But I can get myself on the ball, I need to do that because I need to get my job started, and finally start living.
I've also realized that whenever I'm feeling down about life and what not, if I go to chruch or specifically Bible Study, I learn alot about myself and I realize alot of things. Like last night we were talking and this lady was saying about how she has doubts sometimes. That just surprised me so much because here I am thinking that evetyone sitting around me is 100% positive that there is a God, but I guess I was wrong. So its cool to see that even the most religious people can have doubts. I really hope that someday I can become more religious because that is my ultimate goal in life!