:: life's a bitch ::
The longer I sit here, the more I convince myself: i don't know what the fuck I want to do.
And then my mind wanders back to teaching.
Teach for America
I need to get out of here. I need to get away from family. I need to feel some sort of independency.
Teach for America would give me just that opportunity.
I would be teaching, I would be surrounded by kids, I would be in a completely new environment, I would be on my own...
I want to be a part of something big. I want to make an impact of someone's life. I want to help. I always have. I love kids. There's no question about that. Now, can I teach them?
It would be a two-year committment. But within those two years, I could also work towards getting a Master's in Education by the time my committment ends. And if I chose to, I could continue teaching at that particular school after Teach for America ends, and make my living there. And the salary through Teach for America is actually higher than what I initially thought it would be. I could do this and actually be happy with what I make of myself and my future. I would be doing it for MYSELF and not for someone else.
I could decide to stay in the Bay Area or in California for that matter. But right now, that's not what I want.
I would seriously consider Denver, Colorado - I really would be on my own.
There is always Houston, Texas - at least Jennifer wouldn't be too far away.
I could try New York City.
I could try Hawaii.
I could do Atlanta, Georgia.
I mean, the possibilties are endless.
Unforunately, the application process for the 2008 year is already over. But I can begin to apply for the 2009 academic year by the end of the summer...
It's a rigorous process. Not only for the process of applying, but the whole two year committment of course.
Am I ready for such a change? WOULD I be ready for such a change?
I've been so sheltered for so long... I'm not sure what I'm capable of at all.
But there's no better way to learn than to throw myself out there, right? To just jump right in and just DO IT. I know I can do it. I know there are people out there who believe/would believe in me.
But, why do I feel as if even after four years at the University of California, Davis; after walking across that stage infront of thousands of people to declare my graduate status - why on God's green earth do I still feel as I have accomplished absolutely nothing?
And then my mind wanders back to teaching.
Teach for America
I need to get out of here. I need to get away from family. I need to feel some sort of independency.
Teach for America would give me just that opportunity.
I would be teaching, I would be surrounded by kids, I would be in a completely new environment, I would be on my own...
I want to be a part of something big. I want to make an impact of someone's life. I want to help. I always have. I love kids. There's no question about that. Now, can I teach them?
It would be a two-year committment. But within those two years, I could also work towards getting a Master's in Education by the time my committment ends. And if I chose to, I could continue teaching at that particular school after Teach for America ends, and make my living there. And the salary through Teach for America is actually higher than what I initially thought it would be. I could do this and actually be happy with what I make of myself and my future. I would be doing it for MYSELF and not for someone else.
I could decide to stay in the Bay Area or in California for that matter. But right now, that's not what I want.
I would seriously consider Denver, Colorado - I really would be on my own.
There is always Houston, Texas - at least Jennifer wouldn't be too far away.
I could try New York City.
I could try Hawaii.
I could do Atlanta, Georgia.
I mean, the possibilties are endless.
Unforunately, the application process for the 2008 year is already over. But I can begin to apply for the 2009 academic year by the end of the summer...
It's a rigorous process. Not only for the process of applying, but the whole two year committment of course.
Am I ready for such a change? WOULD I be ready for such a change?
I've been so sheltered for so long... I'm not sure what I'm capable of at all.
But there's no better way to learn than to throw myself out there, right? To just jump right in and just DO IT. I know I can do it. I know there are people out there who believe/would believe in me.
But, why do I feel as if even after four years at the University of California, Davis; after walking across that stage infront of thousands of people to declare my graduate status - why on God's green earth do I still feel as I have accomplished absolutely nothing?