more memories
a funny thing happened today. i saw a girl from my past life which triggered some memories of my youth. i went to the liberty tree mall to see harry potter 3. at one of the booths by the theater, i saw laura crosby. i knew it was her, because her appearance hadn't changed much since i last saw her.
i remember i used to have a crush on her all through elementary school. we grew up in the same neighborhood, and we usually walked home from school together. not just us, but my friends and her friends, cause we all grew up together. but like me, she was always a quiet one.
i remember the 1st dance of 6th grade. i was so awkward. but laura's friends pushed us together and we danced. that was my 1st slow dance. at the time, she was the girl of my dreams, and i was dancing with her. unfortunately that moment didn't last long, because as usual in my life, people saw me enjoying myself...which only resulted in them tearing me down any way they can. i got picked on and haressed for dancing with her. if anyone has seen the movie "Angus" you'll know exactly how i felt. the school loser dancing with the popular girl...she wasnt exactly popular, but to me she was. i felt like a leper...i stopped going to school dances after that. it was just too humiliating being made to feel like i didnt belong when thats all i ever wanted to do.
thinking back on this, i question why i could never stand on my own 2 feet. why did i always run away. my next entry will reveal what i mean.
i remember i used to have a crush on her all through elementary school. we grew up in the same neighborhood, and we usually walked home from school together. not just us, but my friends and her friends, cause we all grew up together. but like me, she was always a quiet one.
i remember the 1st dance of 6th grade. i was so awkward. but laura's friends pushed us together and we danced. that was my 1st slow dance. at the time, she was the girl of my dreams, and i was dancing with her. unfortunately that moment didn't last long, because as usual in my life, people saw me enjoying myself...which only resulted in them tearing me down any way they can. i got picked on and haressed for dancing with her. if anyone has seen the movie "Angus" you'll know exactly how i felt. the school loser dancing with the popular girl...she wasnt exactly popular, but to me she was. i felt like a leper...i stopped going to school dances after that. it was just too humiliating being made to feel like i didnt belong when thats all i ever wanted to do.
thinking back on this, i question why i could never stand on my own 2 feet. why did i always run away. my next entry will reveal what i mean.