Why I am blogging?
With my upcoming graduation looming before me, I found myself sitting and wondering what will I do now that I no longer have to rush at midnight to get my assignments submitted or ignore my friends and family so I can get the best grade possible.
Last year I had an English assignment, I can’t remember what it was for, but as a result wound up searching to find an old friend. I randomly joined different sites with members that have her name and contacted them each individually until I found her.
Judith was an old friend that I had met when I blogged as a teenager on LiveJournal.com. In my life during that time she was one of the few adults I felt like truly took the time to understand what I was going through as well as feeling. She was a source of comfort for me. She also encouraged me to keep pushing along. At times she even told me she was proud of me. If I didn’t blog for more than three days in a row she would asked in my journal where I was.
My journal was a great source of relief for me. It was a place for me to vent about my feelings and to sort out my own feelings. Sometimes I would gain a better perspective when my readers would comment. This opens up the question “Why did I stop blogging?” The answer is simple but the reason is complex; I was in a relationship with a controlling man who convinced me to get rid of my journal. This is a story for another time, and another entry.
So yet again Judith has changed my life. I have been toying with the idea of blogging again for the last several months. Out of the blue she told me that she misses my LiveJournal and reading about my life. She said, “You are a natural diarist.” Why she missed my LiveJournal I don’t understand. I thought I was just a rambling silly immature teenager. Looking back now I realize I began to show my strength. I faced great hurdles yet here I am today, still struggling, but yet better understanding how far I have come in life.
So that one small statement was enough to cinch it for me. I’m going to blog again.