my xmas spirit is not on the sole of that cops boot...
i know i usually dont like to just summarize my day, but this time i am going to... but bear with me because im doing it for a reason . . .
okay so today i went shopping for other peoples xmas presents. on the way, their was a family that had been plagued by a broken down car with no money for repairs. i gave them 5 bucks and wished them good luck and a merry christmas. then, when i got into walmart, i went on this crazy generous spree, spending my money left and right without consideration for the fact that i could that money on myself for ALOT of things. my point is, i was fucking knee deep in the christmas spirit... then, after shopping and shit, i get pulled over for speeding. thats three xmas holidays in a row that thats happened to me. but this time this asshole tickets me for speeding in a 40mph zone because thats where he was when he clocked me, BUT i was in a 45mph zone. that doesnt sound like a big deal, but to me that means a CD or a couple of dinners just because this dipshit didnt realize that the speed was different. okay... so yeah, i get a ticket. it sucks, but i have plenty of money still...no big deal. but then i get home and my mom responds to this story by saying "its always something." ... this gets me thinking. damn straight! ALWAYS FUCKING SOMETHING. i mean i know ive got some shitty ass luck, i always have, but dont i get a break during the holidays or something? that kind of shit always happens to me... i spend my day being nice to people and being in a good ass mood then i fuck it up by going 15 over the speed limit (just like the two cars in front of me were)... ... so i think on this point for a while, pissed off as a mutha fucker. pretty soon i start to cool down, realizing again that "its only money" and "money doesnt make me happy." "my friends make me happy."... then at that very moment my mom is talking to my dad about how much time i spend with my time with my friends. she whines. she misses me. whatever. but my dad replies with "let him enjoy his friends while he's young enough to have them." WHAT THE FUCK?! it hits me. one of these days i will have to leave my friends behind for good. its inevitable. either i will be left or i will leave. dont get me wrong, id love to have each and every one of my friends forever, but it doesnt happen that way. besides, id say goodbye to everyone if it meant that they would get the fuck out of tallahassee and improve the rest of the world with their beauty. even adam, who loves tally to the bone. even his dreams lead him away from here. i'll be pissed if one day he doesnt come to me and hug me goodbye. i'll be so fucking mad if he doesnt find his way onto tv and the radio. ...so yeah, my point = everything good in this world fades away, even something as wonderful as friends. when you add that to the whole "its always something" reality, WHAT THE FUCK IS THERE TO LIVE FOR? WHAT IS THERE IN THE WORLD TO LOOK FORWARD TO?
im sorry if my saying this offends you, but if there is a god, he's a fuck-up if thi is the best he could do.....
"when i grow up, i want to be dead.... or something cool like a penguin."
pleasant dreams and a merry fucking xmas to you too,
happy-go-lucky himself.
okay so today i went shopping for other peoples xmas presents. on the way, their was a family that had been plagued by a broken down car with no money for repairs. i gave them 5 bucks and wished them good luck and a merry christmas. then, when i got into walmart, i went on this crazy generous spree, spending my money left and right without consideration for the fact that i could that money on myself for ALOT of things. my point is, i was fucking knee deep in the christmas spirit... then, after shopping and shit, i get pulled over for speeding. thats three xmas holidays in a row that thats happened to me. but this time this asshole tickets me for speeding in a 40mph zone because thats where he was when he clocked me, BUT i was in a 45mph zone. that doesnt sound like a big deal, but to me that means a CD or a couple of dinners just because this dipshit didnt realize that the speed was different. okay... so yeah, i get a ticket. it sucks, but i have plenty of money still...no big deal. but then i get home and my mom responds to this story by saying "its always something." ... this gets me thinking. damn straight! ALWAYS FUCKING SOMETHING. i mean i know ive got some shitty ass luck, i always have, but dont i get a break during the holidays or something? that kind of shit always happens to me... i spend my day being nice to people and being in a good ass mood then i fuck it up by going 15 over the speed limit (just like the two cars in front of me were)... ... so i think on this point for a while, pissed off as a mutha fucker. pretty soon i start to cool down, realizing again that "its only money" and "money doesnt make me happy." "my friends make me happy."... then at that very moment my mom is talking to my dad about how much time i spend with my time with my friends. she whines. she misses me. whatever. but my dad replies with "let him enjoy his friends while he's young enough to have them." WHAT THE FUCK?! it hits me. one of these days i will have to leave my friends behind for good. its inevitable. either i will be left or i will leave. dont get me wrong, id love to have each and every one of my friends forever, but it doesnt happen that way. besides, id say goodbye to everyone if it meant that they would get the fuck out of tallahassee and improve the rest of the world with their beauty. even adam, who loves tally to the bone. even his dreams lead him away from here. i'll be pissed if one day he doesnt come to me and hug me goodbye. i'll be so fucking mad if he doesnt find his way onto tv and the radio. ...so yeah, my point = everything good in this world fades away, even something as wonderful as friends. when you add that to the whole "its always something" reality, WHAT THE FUCK IS THERE TO LIVE FOR? WHAT IS THERE IN THE WORLD TO LOOK FORWARD TO?
im sorry if my saying this offends you, but if there is a god, he's a fuck-up if thi is the best he could do.....
"when i grow up, i want to be dead.... or something cool like a penguin."
pleasant dreams and a merry fucking xmas to you too,
happy-go-lucky himself.