Just thinking about it....
Not to make this update sad or anything but this is just something I feel the need to say. You know...if I were to sit down and think about everything thats going on right now and that has happened these past months Id be crying for hours. Im sorry that all I post are things that are hurting me. But this is the only place where I can say how I feel and not be afraid. I cant talk to my parents , they never undderstand and no one in this house has time to listen to me. You know what the sad part is? For the past couple months I havnt told anyone what's been going on, I've kept it all to myself and at this point where Im all alone, everyones sleeping, and Ivan and Evan are out....Im about ready to explode. If I even do tell someone something never fully tell them Everything. I always leave things out...and how I feel about it. I had some time to think today and I realized in 2 weeks Evan will be gone. As in I only get to see him every couple months. Ivan will be to busy to notice anything even though he says he will still be here. You know I cant really say how much I hate myself at this point. Being rejected by the only person Ive ever loved in my life, being ignored by the people I care about most, and everything else is just tearing me to pieces. I know you guys are probably going to say Im young and I have my whole life ahead of me. But why should I look forward to something that will only be worse. Yet again Im sorry you guys read this but I really needed to put my thoughts somewhere.
On a happier note.... Im leaving for 1 week. My cousin bought me a dress that for once in my life feel like Im worth something and that Im beautiful. Its for my aunts wedding on the 30th.
Night,
Lissette <3
On a happier note.... Im leaving for 1 week. My cousin bought me a dress that for once in my life feel like Im worth something and that Im beautiful. Its for my aunts wedding on the 30th.
Night,
Lissette <3