And so it goes.
I should post. I haven't felt like it in a while, and I don't really feel like it now. One of the reasons is out of the blue, 2 people whom I considered friends have decided we aren't anymore. With no warning or explination. I admit it disturbs me, and makes LJ less fun. So I'm licking my wounds. But whatever.
Also, it's fucking hot. The heat makes me cranky and lazy. And sick. I woke up with the beginings of a sore throat and am now sucking Cold-eezs to the point that I'm going to turn in to a nickle. And taking 60mg of Sudafed, which means soon I won't be sleeping. I fucking hate post nasal drip. I am not going to get sick. This is as far as it goes.
The most important reason I'm not posting these days is that I am thoroughly, beyond a shadow of a doubt, completely and totally in love with Rodney McKay/David Hewlett. In that "pipe dream, we haven't met yet, and even if we had, there is no way in hell" kind of way. I love celebrity crushes. It gives me something to do. I spend my days and nights reading SGA fanfic. I have all of his movies that Netflix offers in my queue, and am buying the ones I can't rent. Yep. Gone. Been a while since one has hit me, so I'm enjoying it like mad.
I am busy inspite of this. I go to work, I hang out with friends. This month I went to AX, saw Pirates twice, had dinner with Susan, replaced my iPod yet again, had a sleep over, watched SGA S1 several times, started watching due South again. I hang out with KiSA. I read manga, watch movies, go out to dinner, wash my car, go shopping. I just don't post to LJ.
As for KiSA, well, things with us are good. We're friends, and I think we understand each other better. I care for him. We hang out, watch TV, go to movies, whatever. I am sad we couldn't be more, but I have made my peace with it.
There you have it. Things are mostly of the good, I'm just distracted and lazy. Basically, I don't give a rats ass. That is to say, I care, just not enough to actually do anything. I'm crazy with the apathetic.
Also, it's fucking hot. The heat makes me cranky and lazy. And sick. I woke up with the beginings of a sore throat and am now sucking Cold-eezs to the point that I'm going to turn in to a nickle. And taking 60mg of Sudafed, which means soon I won't be sleeping. I fucking hate post nasal drip. I am not going to get sick. This is as far as it goes.
The most important reason I'm not posting these days is that I am thoroughly, beyond a shadow of a doubt, completely and totally in love with Rodney McKay/David Hewlett. In that "pipe dream, we haven't met yet, and even if we had, there is no way in hell" kind of way. I love celebrity crushes. It gives me something to do. I spend my days and nights reading SGA fanfic. I have all of his movies that Netflix offers in my queue, and am buying the ones I can't rent. Yep. Gone. Been a while since one has hit me, so I'm enjoying it like mad.
I am busy inspite of this. I go to work, I hang out with friends. This month I went to AX, saw Pirates twice, had dinner with Susan, replaced my iPod yet again, had a sleep over, watched SGA S1 several times, started watching due South again. I hang out with KiSA. I read manga, watch movies, go out to dinner, wash my car, go shopping. I just don't post to LJ.
As for KiSA, well, things with us are good. We're friends, and I think we understand each other better. I care for him. We hang out, watch TV, go to movies, whatever. I am sad we couldn't be more, but I have made my peace with it.
There you have it. Things are mostly of the good, I'm just distracted and lazy. Basically, I don't give a rats ass. That is to say, I care, just not enough to actually do anything. I'm crazy with the apathetic.