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This just sucks. Being sick/injured brings out the worst of my fatalism. Being both.. well, it's that much worse. I feel like I'm never going to be well and uninjured again. I've been sick now since December 27th or so, and .. I'm still sick.
Matt's been out running and riding his bike all weekend. I left the house for half an hour yesterday to buy some 2cent stamps. I just cancelled a dinner that we've been trying to plan for ages, because I didn't want to get them sick. I'm so tired of sitting around the house, thinking of all the stuff I could/should be doing. I'm tired of coughing. Periodically the kind of coughing where you manage to trigger your gag reflex, and where you can't STOP coughing for minutes. I haven't run since the 20 miler, and I feel like I'm writing myself out of the marathon. Yes, yes. I know. I'm fully aware that's my fatalistic side talking. But when you sit at home alone all weekend when others are out enjoying themselves and training and being outside and having fun.. I guess you hafta feel sorry for yourself some.
I'm gonna go do that s'more. And maybe some laundry!
Matt's been out running and riding his bike all weekend. I left the house for half an hour yesterday to buy some 2cent stamps. I just cancelled a dinner that we've been trying to plan for ages, because I didn't want to get them sick. I'm so tired of sitting around the house, thinking of all the stuff I could/should be doing. I'm tired of coughing. Periodically the kind of coughing where you manage to trigger your gag reflex, and where you can't STOP coughing for minutes. I haven't run since the 20 miler, and I feel like I'm writing myself out of the marathon. Yes, yes. I know. I'm fully aware that's my fatalistic side talking. But when you sit at home alone all weekend when others are out enjoying themselves and training and being outside and having fun.. I guess you hafta feel sorry for yourself some.
I'm gonna go do that s'more. And maybe some laundry!