i'm don't like needing people
i've decided i'm not going to owe anyone anything from now own...especially my family...i hate being dependent on people...it makes me feel like a little kid. i forgot what it was like to actually dislike someone and have to hold in my resentment for someone...i'm so used to being around people i like and get along with i forgot what it felt like to not get along with someone..and it sucks because i have to just grit my teeth and put up with it because i usually don't have to deal with these people...but right now i have to live with them and they will always be in my life so i just have to put up with it...and it is sad because i think it all comes down to respect and respecting people...that's how you get along with people...and unfortunately i just don't think my family respects me. i am remembering why i wanted to get away from home so badly. and you can count on this...i will not ask anything from anyone for the rest of the time i am home...these people don't owe me anything and i'm tired of feeling debted to them.