Fall In Love and You'll Fall Apart....
I feel like that...I'm afraid that my relationship with Stephen is getting worse before it's getting better. Who am I kidding? Not many girls would still be in it at this point....
I had dreams about boys last night. Cute boys treating me with respect and waiting on me for once. But alas, it was only a dream.
How do I fix this (these) problems, I ask myself?
Well I should take people's advice and say, how about a break?
How many people have asked, "Why is she with him?"
A lot.
Why do I stay?
I'm stupid.
A couple of boys were around Joshie's the other day....Ben, who lives there, and his brother, Jared who came up for the holidays. Shame how odd it felt to have guys somewhat acknowledging a pretty face in the room and offering me things. So I mean yeah, you can tell when a guy thinks you're attractive and I think they both thought it.....
.....And it was sad how nice they were to me.....because I don't get that at home.
I can't say anything anymore without pissing him off....
....I fuck up at least once a day even when I'm trying really hard not to.
.....
Maybe I do just need to get out of it for a while. Maybe he'd think about things....
Another Lonely Day,
*jen-rat*
I had dreams about boys last night. Cute boys treating me with respect and waiting on me for once. But alas, it was only a dream.
How do I fix this (these) problems, I ask myself?
Well I should take people's advice and say, how about a break?
How many people have asked, "Why is she with him?"
A lot.
Why do I stay?
I'm stupid.
A couple of boys were around Joshie's the other day....Ben, who lives there, and his brother, Jared who came up for the holidays. Shame how odd it felt to have guys somewhat acknowledging a pretty face in the room and offering me things. So I mean yeah, you can tell when a guy thinks you're attractive and I think they both thought it.....
.....And it was sad how nice they were to me.....because I don't get that at home.
I can't say anything anymore without pissing him off....
....I fuck up at least once a day even when I'm trying really hard not to.
.....
Maybe I do just need to get out of it for a while. Maybe he'd think about things....
Another Lonely Day,
*jen-rat*