When You Face Tomorrow- Chapter 19
Author: Shriya_4
Pairing: Jaemin/Homin/Yoomin/Minsu (mainly OT5)
Genre: Fantasy, Romance, AU
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Character Death, Language
Disclaimer: I want to own them and marry them..but i can't so well..they belong to themselves. This is my first fic so be nice :P Saranghe <3
Summary: Reuniting them is his one last wish. Can he make them face a tomorrow without him?
Chapter 19:
Life...
Forever...
Such over-rated terms…
Indescribable at their best, difficult at their worst.
Moments...
There are some moments that one can express in the most fluent of ways and others where one can only watch and feel...
Feel and remain strong.
Feel and remain helpless.
Flashback:
They were at the hospital...
Yunho, Junsu and Yoochun sat around their Maknae their heads cradled in their arms as they slept; while Jaejoong had slid onto the bed to sleep next to his dying lover.
Changmin's parents and sisters had already left earlier in the day, unable to control their emotions and giving in to their desperate need for rest; allowing the five of them their much needed alone time.
Min opened his tired eyes and stared at his sleeping hyungs.
He lifted one of his arms slowly and painfully, trying to shake his tormented lover awake.
Jaejoong opened his eyes that were now swollen from the endless nights of crying, and looked at Changmin inquisitively.
"Jae-ah...in the drawer in my room...there are letters..I wrote them a while ago..give them to everyone...for me...please."
Jaejoong felt a fresh onslaught of tears plague his being as he heard the pain in Min's voice and nodded quickly before turning away to wipe his tears away.
Changmin pulled Jaejoong's face towards his own and placed feather light kisses oh his forehead and lips. Jaejoong let out a heart wrenching sob and buried his head into Min's chest, holding on to the boy for dear life.
They stayed like that for hours, until Jaejoong finally let sleep curl its way around his consciousness.
Changmin watched all of them sleep and smiled sadly.
He knew what was going to happen next. He accepted it...embraced it.
Greet death like an old friend. Isn't that what they always say?
After what felt like only minutes of sleep but had in actuality been a couple of hours, Jaejoong woke up to Changmin's voice in his ear; a soothing, hoarse and tired voice that was bent on invading his sanctuary of ignorance.
"Jae-ah...I think it’s time…”
“Time for what?..” Jaejoong mumbled sleepily.
“He's calling me...and...you know...he sounds like you..."
"Who?..."
"Death...angel...God..I don't know...but he sounds like you...he ...sounds…nice...he wants me to sleep...hyung..."
Jaejoong shot up from his position and stared in horror as Min gazed back at him, tiredly.
"Minnie..n-no. Don't say stuff like that. You wait. I'll call the doctors, okay? Just relax."
But even as he said this, he could hear Min's heartbeat slow down into a dull throb and felt panic grip him like a sick plague.
He looked into Changmin's calm eyes and felt a paralyzing sense of helplessness course through his body.
Changmin felt warmth seep into his soul, a warmth that strangely resembled a song.
"Jae-ah, don't be scared anymore, it doesn't hurt. I promise. It doesn't hurt. I love you, Hyung...tell them...also...I love all of you very very much. I'm sorry, Hyung...I want you'll to be safe, be happy...and-and know…that it's ...not a...bad ...place..."
"Don't say stuff like that," Jaejoong hissed, his breathing becoming labored.
"Will you sing for me? Sing 'Insa'..please?"
"Changmin, I'm calling the doctor..."
"Please. Please..."
The older member bit his lower lip and ignored the tears that started to sting the back of his eyes. He leaned his mouth against the younger's ear and sang, sang while his tears threatened to take away his voice.
After a minute of humming, Jaejoong glanced at the other's face and felt bile rise up in his throat as he watched Changmin's eyes shut and the heart monitor's jerky lines flat-line into a doleful tune.
"Min? Min? Get up, Baby. Come on. This isn't funny, Changmin. You better get up," he whispered shaking the other's shoulder and suppressing the panic in his voice.
But with no answer save for the song of death, Jaejoong clutched despairingly at his chest, trying desperately not break from the very essence of his being.
Finally, he screamed, "YUNHO! JUNSU! YOOCHUN!! Somebody help him! God! Call the doctors! SOMEONE HELP HIM!"
The lead singer grabbed hold of their leader and shook him awake, sobbing, hyperventilating -- dying.
Hearing his screams and the piercing sound of the heart monitor the three awoke from their various states of restful unrest.
Yoochun shot out of his chair and pressed the emergency button over and over again; his eyes tearing up and heart beating erratically in demented fear.
Yunho pulled Jaejoong away from Changmin's still body and held him tight, refusing to let go, even as his own heart tore into the tiniest of pieces.
Junsu's face contorted into the most pained expression known to man and the other three watched as the boy curled up next to the Maknae, holding the boy's pale face and keening desperately at the fallen Maknae, "Minnie...come back, okay?...Min-ah...Who's going to play games with me, huh? Who's going to fight with me? Min-ah...come back, okay? Please? Please come back..."
Yoochun grabbed hold of Min’s cold hands and tried to shake the younger one awake, “YAH! SHIM CHANGMIN YOU BETTER WAKE UP OR HYUNG’S GOING TO BE VERY ANGRY! GET UP YOU IDIOT! I SWEAR I'M GOING TO TELL EVERYBODY WHAT YOU DID DURING BORA-BORA! YOU BETTER COMEBACK YOU FOOL!"
Yunho fell to his knees and buried his head in his hands and cried, while Jaejoong threw his head back and screamed for all that he was worth. His heart ripping at the injustice.
When the doctors ran into the room, they saw one of the most torturous sights they'd ever seen in their careers.
Four boys; holding onto their only Maknae, crying with every ounce of their being; begging amongst their heart wrenching sobs for the younger one to open his eyes.
All in vain.
One of the doctors cleared his throat and turned towards a crying nurse, "Declare it...Shim Changmin...time of death 3:38 a.m."
End Flashback.
Jaejoong felt Yunho’s hand on his shoulder, “Jaejoong-ah...we have to go."
He jerked his head once at the leader before laying down the bouquet of roses with shaking hands. He looked up and stared at the words in front of him. Some part of him refusing to acknowledge the words that he himself had written:
In loving memory of:
Shim Changmin,
A loving son, brother and friend.
Dong Bang Shin Ki’s Maknae and life source.
Cassioppeia’s wildcat.
He thinketh no evil, but does plenty.
Uri Min.
Forever Loved.
Rest in Peace.
He looked at the headstone for a little while longer before reluctantly turning away in order to allow other people a chance to pay their respects.
I love you, Min. I always have, I always will.
Jaejoong stood beside his members and stared listlessly at the video being played at the funeral.
It was a video made by their fans; and it was the one video that made Jaejoong shed the tears he'd refused to let out until then.
He could hear his voice. Changmin's voice. As he laughed, as he danced, as he sang, he could feel Changmin resound in his soul and in the broken pieces of his heart.
He felt the other three wrap their arms around him and felt their tears mingle with his own.
What they didn't realize was that the four of them had shared a single thought. It was then that their hearts strengthened towards a single dream.
Changmin-ah. Uri Changmin.I'll protect them.
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A/N YOU HAVE TO WATCH IT!...credit goes to whoever made it...it's the video that really killed me.
There's more...this isn't the last chapter...those letters...hold a lot of secrets...so be prepared...(Im crying while typing this so excuse me...) Writing epilogues can be a bitch...but thats for later...there are five more chapters coming your way...they all have something to do with the letters...one chapter dedicated to each member..plus an epilogue..so yeah...let me go weep in peace now.
Pairing: Jaemin/Homin/Yoomin/Minsu (mainly OT5)
Genre: Fantasy, Romance, AU
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Character Death, Language
Disclaimer: I want to own them and marry them..but i can't so well..they belong to themselves. This is my first fic so be nice :P Saranghe <3
Summary: Reuniting them is his one last wish. Can he make them face a tomorrow without him?
Chapter 19:
Life...
Forever...
Such over-rated terms…
Indescribable at their best, difficult at their worst.
Moments...
There are some moments that one can express in the most fluent of ways and others where one can only watch and feel...
Feel and remain strong.
Feel and remain helpless.
Flashback:
They were at the hospital...
Yunho, Junsu and Yoochun sat around their Maknae their heads cradled in their arms as they slept; while Jaejoong had slid onto the bed to sleep next to his dying lover.
Changmin's parents and sisters had already left earlier in the day, unable to control their emotions and giving in to their desperate need for rest; allowing the five of them their much needed alone time.
Min opened his tired eyes and stared at his sleeping hyungs.
He lifted one of his arms slowly and painfully, trying to shake his tormented lover awake.
Jaejoong opened his eyes that were now swollen from the endless nights of crying, and looked at Changmin inquisitively.
"Jae-ah...in the drawer in my room...there are letters..I wrote them a while ago..give them to everyone...for me...please."
Jaejoong felt a fresh onslaught of tears plague his being as he heard the pain in Min's voice and nodded quickly before turning away to wipe his tears away.
Changmin pulled Jaejoong's face towards his own and placed feather light kisses oh his forehead and lips. Jaejoong let out a heart wrenching sob and buried his head into Min's chest, holding on to the boy for dear life.
They stayed like that for hours, until Jaejoong finally let sleep curl its way around his consciousness.
Changmin watched all of them sleep and smiled sadly.
He knew what was going to happen next. He accepted it...embraced it.
Greet death like an old friend. Isn't that what they always say?
After what felt like only minutes of sleep but had in actuality been a couple of hours, Jaejoong woke up to Changmin's voice in his ear; a soothing, hoarse and tired voice that was bent on invading his sanctuary of ignorance.
"Jae-ah...I think it’s time…”
“Time for what?..” Jaejoong mumbled sleepily.
“He's calling me...and...you know...he sounds like you..."
"Who?..."
"Death...angel...God..I don't know...but he sounds like you...he ...sounds…nice...he wants me to sleep...hyung..."
Jaejoong shot up from his position and stared in horror as Min gazed back at him, tiredly.
"Minnie..n-no. Don't say stuff like that. You wait. I'll call the doctors, okay? Just relax."
But even as he said this, he could hear Min's heartbeat slow down into a dull throb and felt panic grip him like a sick plague.
He looked into Changmin's calm eyes and felt a paralyzing sense of helplessness course through his body.
Changmin felt warmth seep into his soul, a warmth that strangely resembled a song.
"Jae-ah, don't be scared anymore, it doesn't hurt. I promise. It doesn't hurt. I love you, Hyung...tell them...also...I love all of you very very much. I'm sorry, Hyung...I want you'll to be safe, be happy...and-and know…that it's ...not a...bad ...place..."
"Don't say stuff like that," Jaejoong hissed, his breathing becoming labored.
"Will you sing for me? Sing 'Insa'..please?"
"Changmin, I'm calling the doctor..."
"Please. Please..."
The older member bit his lower lip and ignored the tears that started to sting the back of his eyes. He leaned his mouth against the younger's ear and sang, sang while his tears threatened to take away his voice.
After a minute of humming, Jaejoong glanced at the other's face and felt bile rise up in his throat as he watched Changmin's eyes shut and the heart monitor's jerky lines flat-line into a doleful tune.
"Min? Min? Get up, Baby. Come on. This isn't funny, Changmin. You better get up," he whispered shaking the other's shoulder and suppressing the panic in his voice.
But with no answer save for the song of death, Jaejoong clutched despairingly at his chest, trying desperately not break from the very essence of his being.
Finally, he screamed, "YUNHO! JUNSU! YOOCHUN!! Somebody help him! God! Call the doctors! SOMEONE HELP HIM!"
The lead singer grabbed hold of their leader and shook him awake, sobbing, hyperventilating -- dying.
Hearing his screams and the piercing sound of the heart monitor the three awoke from their various states of restful unrest.
Yoochun shot out of his chair and pressed the emergency button over and over again; his eyes tearing up and heart beating erratically in demented fear.
Yunho pulled Jaejoong away from Changmin's still body and held him tight, refusing to let go, even as his own heart tore into the tiniest of pieces.
Junsu's face contorted into the most pained expression known to man and the other three watched as the boy curled up next to the Maknae, holding the boy's pale face and keening desperately at the fallen Maknae, "Minnie...come back, okay?...Min-ah...Who's going to play games with me, huh? Who's going to fight with me? Min-ah...come back, okay? Please? Please come back..."
Yoochun grabbed hold of Min’s cold hands and tried to shake the younger one awake, “YAH! SHIM CHANGMIN YOU BETTER WAKE UP OR HYUNG’S GOING TO BE VERY ANGRY! GET UP YOU IDIOT! I SWEAR I'M GOING TO TELL EVERYBODY WHAT YOU DID DURING BORA-BORA! YOU BETTER COMEBACK YOU FOOL!"
Yunho fell to his knees and buried his head in his hands and cried, while Jaejoong threw his head back and screamed for all that he was worth. His heart ripping at the injustice.
When the doctors ran into the room, they saw one of the most torturous sights they'd ever seen in their careers.
Four boys; holding onto their only Maknae, crying with every ounce of their being; begging amongst their heart wrenching sobs for the younger one to open his eyes.
All in vain.
One of the doctors cleared his throat and turned towards a crying nurse, "Declare it...Shim Changmin...time of death 3:38 a.m."
End Flashback.
Jaejoong felt Yunho’s hand on his shoulder, “Jaejoong-ah...we have to go."
He jerked his head once at the leader before laying down the bouquet of roses with shaking hands. He looked up and stared at the words in front of him. Some part of him refusing to acknowledge the words that he himself had written:
In loving memory of:
Shim Changmin,
A loving son, brother and friend.
Dong Bang Shin Ki’s Maknae and life source.
Cassioppeia’s wildcat.
He thinketh no evil, but does plenty.
Uri Min.
Forever Loved.
Rest in Peace.
He looked at the headstone for a little while longer before reluctantly turning away in order to allow other people a chance to pay their respects.
I love you, Min. I always have, I always will.
Jaejoong stood beside his members and stared listlessly at the video being played at the funeral.
It was a video made by their fans; and it was the one video that made Jaejoong shed the tears he'd refused to let out until then.
He could hear his voice. Changmin's voice. As he laughed, as he danced, as he sang, he could feel Changmin resound in his soul and in the broken pieces of his heart.
He felt the other three wrap their arms around him and felt their tears mingle with his own.
What they didn't realize was that the four of them had shared a single thought. It was then that their hearts strengthened towards a single dream.
Changmin-ah. Uri Changmin.I'll protect them.
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A/N YOU HAVE TO WATCH IT!...credit goes to whoever made it...it's the video that really killed me.
There's more...this isn't the last chapter...those letters...hold a lot of secrets...so be prepared...(Im crying while typing this so excuse me...) Writing epilogues can be a bitch...but thats for later...there are five more chapters coming your way...they all have something to do with the letters...one chapter dedicated to each member..plus an epilogue..so yeah...let me go weep in peace now.