It Takes Two - Chapter 15
Author: Shriya_4
Pairing: Jaemin, Past!Yoomin, Past!Yunjae, 2U
Genre: Fantasy, Romance, AU, Angst, Humor, Fluff.
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Character Death (Yunho,Yoochun), Language.
Disclaimer: MINE! ALL MINE! MUHAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHA! *gets bricked by SM, Avex and CJeS*
Summary: Yoochun and Yunho have only one goal in mind - Getting their boyfriends together. Now the only problem is that they're both dead and their boyfriends still alive. So they decide to take the matter to the dude upstairs. However, things aren't going to be that easy, especially since both Changmin and Jaejoong seem to hate each other with an almost incomprehensible virulence and still appear to remain in love with their deceased boyfriends.Are the two boys in heaven ever going to accomplish their goal?
Chapter 15:
It wasn’t as if Changmin expected Jaejoong to take it all in a stride; but he hadn’t expected for things to go the way they did.
His decision to date Junsu was something he’d decided purely on the basis of simple judgment. Junsu was attractive, had a good sense of humor and cared about him…what more could he possibly need?
But obviously, Jaejoong’s perceptions of Changmin’s decisions differed drastically.
“No,” the older man stated bluntly after minutes of having stared blankly at a spot above the other’s right shoulder.
“I didn’t ask you for your permission, Hyung.”
“Good. Because I wasn’t planning on giving it. You cannot date Junsu. It isn’t an option.”
The younger of the two rolled his eyes at this and folded his arms across his chest in an apt demonstration of total and utter defiance, “And pray tell, why the hell not?”
“What do you mean ‘why’? You’re obviously still at an unstable point in your life. Plus, I don’t want you playing around with my Brother-in-law’s feelings just because you feel potentially obligated to swing from one man to another. I don't want someone so blatantly stuck in the past to date Junsu.”
With a head filled with consuming and inexplicable fears, Jaejoong failed to note the look of hurt that flashed across the other’s face.
Changmin laughed a little bitterly.
The reason why you can never give us a chance…the reason why I can never hold a place equal to Yunho’s in your life…is because it’s YOU who hasn’t been able to let go of the past.
The fact that you still call Junsu your Brother-in-law shows that in your mind you’re still married to Yunho-Hyung and that it never actually ended for you.
You finally showed me the reason why we can never be good enough for each other…the reason why we would end in nothing but tragedy…and I can’t be Yunho. I won’t be. I REFUSE to be.
“Luckily for me, Jae-Hyung, I don’t have to listen to you,” Changmin sneered before wrenching the door open and walking out, clutching one hand to his chest as if trying to stop his heart from tearing into a million pieces.
“Changmin!” Jaejoong yelled, chasing after him as a sudden feeling of suffocation gripped his lungs, “Stop!”
“NO!” Changmin yelled and whirled around to find Jaejoong standing five feet away from him, “You stop.”
When Jaejoong simply stared back at him in shocked silence, Changmin felt tears well up in his eyes, “What do you want from me, Hyung? What more could you possibly want?!”
“…”
“Do you even know?”
“Changmin, I-“
“What, Hyung? You what?!‘
Jaejoong couldn’t stand it anymore, “What do you want me to say, huh? God damn it, Min. I don’t want to start a relationship. And I don’t care about how dysfunctional that is! I don’t know how to deal with you!!…I’m the one who doesn’t know what you want! Why are you over-reacting? Why are you making it out to be as if you’re in love with me and that I’m breaking your heart?!-“
Something broke inside Changmin at that point. A dam that had been built precisely over the course of ten years, a dam that held a flood of secrets and years of lying…coming crashing down with a force that could equal the strength of the Gods.
“MAYBE BECAUSE I AM, HYUNG!! MAYBE BECAUSE YOU ARE!”
If words could have described that particular moment in time, then words would be far more of a powerful tool than the world thought imaginable.
Changmin’s heart nearly failed him the minute those words came out of his mouth, and if Jaejoong’s expression were any indication, then the other was feeling just as caught off guard.
“I-I…” the younger stuttered, taking a step back from the other man.
“Changmin-ah…” he heard the model call out silently, his voice dropping down to an uncertain whisper, “I-I… don’t…”
“You don’t have to say anything…I didn’t mean…not like…”
“No. No…I…please understand…me…I don’t feel that way about you…I…”
With hands clenched into shaking fists and a heart bleeding with every kind of torturous confusion, Changmin let out a pained chuckle, “You aren’t obligated to either, Hyung. So please…at least for awhile…leave me alone. I need to think…I don’t know why I said that…but I beg you. Leave me be.”
“I..I..can’t…”
“Then I’ll die.”
Jaejoong’s head shot up, his ears not failing to catch the hint of truth behind those ill spoken words.
“You’re killing me, Hyung. Every second that I’m around you is taking a bit of my soul away …and I don’t even know why…I’m not …I’m not strong enough for this…”
“Changmin-ah!” The older screamed as he watched the other walk away from him once more.
When did we…how did we become so fucked up? So dependant…
Yunho and Yoochun stood in between their former lovers, each looking into the eyes that once held immeasurable love and happiness and felt their hearts break for a time that once was.
“Yunho…”
“Mm?”
“Do you want to know a secret…?”
Hearing the pain behind that question, he turned to look at Yoochun, who did nothing but stare at the retreating back of his lost love.
“A secret?”
“Changmin has always…always loved Jaejoong…”
“…what are you saying…?”
Yoochun chuckled, and Yunho felt whatever was left of his heart break away into speckles of dust, “He’s actually never admitted it out loud. Well not when he was sober at least. Way before you…way before us…way before anything…Changmin always had eyes for Jaejoong… but at that time Jaejoong only saw you and nothing else…”
“…”
“He told me that it was love at first sight for him. All those instances when Changmin would whisper in your ear to piss Jaejoong off, he’d do it just so that Jaejoong would acknowledge him…just give him something that he would never give to you…and that was enough for him…”
“But how? You and him…”
“Started off as a lie. A lie that only I knew of. “
“…”
“He told me everything one night when we’d both gotten drunk at Jessica’s birthday party. He cried so much and I told him that if he needed anyone to lean on…then he’d always have me… and so we…did stuff together…experimented with each other…but his heart always belonged to Jaejoong…and the best part of it was that he never even realized it.”
“But he loved you…I know he did…Yoochun…he did…”
“Tell me something, Yun. When do the lines between love and dependency blur…? When does convenience start to become second nature…? Changmin…sometimes I feel like I brainwashed him into thinking that he loved me…I tried to make him, at least consciously, forget Jaejoong because of my own selfish motives…”
“Yoochun, he may have loved Jaejoong…but-”
“Does, Yunho. Does.”
“You were everything to him, Chunnie. He did love you…maybe not at the beginning…but he did…”
“Or maybe he forgot,maybe I did too...but you’re right…he did love me just as I loved him…our love was probably the strongest in the world. And yet he always claimed that I saved him… that I kept him sane...but what he failed to realize was that we were reflections of each other…untold stories that stared into each other’s eyes but merged to form nothing more than an illusion of what could have been real…”
Yunho looked up to find Yoochun looking at him with an expression that held the paleness of something hidden and the brokenness of something lost.
“Do you know why, Yun? Do you know why we were so alike?”
“…Why…?”
“Because we both fell in love with the two people in the world that would never love us as much as we loved them...because at the end of it all…those two people loved each other more than they could ever love us…”
By the time the words could sink into Yunho’s mind, Yoochun had vanished into the depths of heaven, earth and hell; leaving the other to stand beside Jaejoong and feel an emotion that he’d never once felt before, engulf his entire being.
Xiah watched the scene unfold from the corner of the passageway, leaning his head back against the cooling surface of the wall as his story fell into place.
Soon... Soon, those that were wronged will find a path to right themselves... and Love and Fate will reconcile once more.
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A/N Omg I'm exhausted.
This chapter was a bitch to edit, honestly. Either way I hope the end shocked you. Blew your mind, etc.
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