Summing up...
•Struggle-the endless struggle.Struggling to fit in a team of all men and yet NOT attempting to be like them,struggling to get my voice/my opinion heard,struggling to prove myself,struggling against thoughts/opinions that run contrary to my own,struggling to manage home and work efficiently to the best of my ability,struggling to curb my anger when the world seems so unfair,so untrue.
•Getting adapted to this hot,humid climate where each day feels like I am wading through water thick and deep or walking through a dream that clings to me.
•Finding my world of movies on weekends and getting immersed in it completely.
•Working till 2:15 AM, logging in 15 1/2 hrs. of work - a first in my life.
• The sweet scent of my own hard-earned money and that feeling of freedom;that I can spend it whenever I want, on whatever I want. The gift of my first salary to myself- a new mobile phone.
• Days when I miss the afternoon siesta,daydreaming and words...words on paper, in this LJ.
•Busy days at work, and suddenly I get an SMS from Y and it brightens up my day and I am grinning foolishly the whole day.
•Days that trickle by as I wait eagerly to meet him again.*sigh*
•The beautiful,interesting mosiac of people I meet and their stories that I hear.
•The day that I receive an email from a friend from school telling me that she is pregnant and the immense joy I feel for her and there is another day-the day she tells me that she delivered twins but one of them passed away hardly a month after entering this world. I am shocked and sad and the tears come unbidden.There must be so many dreams,so many hopes that must have taken birth in her heart and then to face this..this profound loss.
•Days when school seems like a lifetime ago, a far away world,long gone and evaporated.
•Days when I hate being an adult and at times being a woman,being saddled with responsibility and to juggle my home and work life.
•Days when I shirk it all,escape it and sit by the window with a cup of tea and daydream away,lazily.
That is how my days have been,eventful at times,empty at other and quite surprisingly,lonely today or maybe, I am just tired.Anyway, it is nice to post here,once again. I have been reading your journals and enjoying the little nuggets of your life but unable to comment.Anyway,hope all of you are fine.