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well, i guess i never found the time to complete that last entry. its alright as it is though.
i have returned to victoria, unpacked (some of) my things, said good-bye to best friends (after barely seeing them on my return), and gone to work trying to build something for myself here.
the job search is going terribly, it seems i don't have the required skills or experience to serve cups of coffee or
re-stock movie shelves. i suppose i could be 'out there' a little more frequently but as always i'm resisiting the idea of work. i'm always exhausted by 4:00 p.m. regardless of how little work i managed to accomplish throughout the day. whatever happened to my fast-paced go-go lifetsyle?
i miss karmin terribly as i haven't spoken to her since she left for tour. i'm afraid she'll change her mind over the summer after being apart from dan for so long and decide that she doesn't want to move to van anymore. this puts me in a dilemna as i don't really want to go without her, but i feel like i must go to school. after three semesters off i can't re-enter to sfu and my grades from the latest semester were a little weak so its doubtful i can transfer to anywhere else. i suppose some research is in order.
logan locked himself inside his house for most of his visit to victoria and so all i saw of him was mild mannered sunday night visit upon his arrival into town. he says he'll be back in between tree-planting and montreal and we will spend time together then but logan, like lee, says a lot of things.
which brings me to lee and his abandon. unlike logan, lee i spent no time with because he was so busy with everyone else. and sure, he tried once to get together with me, which i blew, but i tried everyday all week, and received less in exchange then a returned phone call. if there were ever people that bring life and purpose into this shallow and self-contained city, lee and logan are among the few. it is clear these thoughts are not shared.
of course karmin is one of these to me as well, but our friendship is tight, and unsettled.
i have returned to victoria, unpacked (some of) my things, said good-bye to best friends (after barely seeing them on my return), and gone to work trying to build something for myself here.
the job search is going terribly, it seems i don't have the required skills or experience to serve cups of coffee or
re-stock movie shelves. i suppose i could be 'out there' a little more frequently but as always i'm resisiting the idea of work. i'm always exhausted by 4:00 p.m. regardless of how little work i managed to accomplish throughout the day. whatever happened to my fast-paced go-go lifetsyle?
i miss karmin terribly as i haven't spoken to her since she left for tour. i'm afraid she'll change her mind over the summer after being apart from dan for so long and decide that she doesn't want to move to van anymore. this puts me in a dilemna as i don't really want to go without her, but i feel like i must go to school. after three semesters off i can't re-enter to sfu and my grades from the latest semester were a little weak so its doubtful i can transfer to anywhere else. i suppose some research is in order.
logan locked himself inside his house for most of his visit to victoria and so all i saw of him was mild mannered sunday night visit upon his arrival into town. he says he'll be back in between tree-planting and montreal and we will spend time together then but logan, like lee, says a lot of things.
which brings me to lee and his abandon. unlike logan, lee i spent no time with because he was so busy with everyone else. and sure, he tried once to get together with me, which i blew, but i tried everyday all week, and received less in exchange then a returned phone call. if there were ever people that bring life and purpose into this shallow and self-contained city, lee and logan are among the few. it is clear these thoughts are not shared.
of course karmin is one of these to me as well, but our friendship is tight, and unsettled.