politics of totally crushing
also, brian the music loving prarie boy called me yesterday. he whispered he'd been trying to call, but i haven't been home and he was too nervous to leave a msg. i buy it since i'm generally off running through the city or kicking around the dorms, and i think its sweet that he was sill trying to get in touch after two weeks. so we spoke for nearly an hour in both standard small talk and bonus materials and we agreed to see each other on saturday night. i hope we won't be afraid of each other.
it hurts when someone you wanted never even saw you. i realized today that a boy i had been briefly crushing on was even more of what i wanted than i had realized. and while i perceived him as simply one content in flying solo, and chalked his disregard of me as an option up to this idea, it turns out that he had been looking for someone the whole time. and we were both looking for the same thing. but i guess to everyone around these parts i came off as little more than a boring and shallow pothead. my personality abandoned me here.
now i'm only smoking cigarettes trying to wave at street lamps through a smoky, lonely haze. and i can't stop listening to the cardigans.
it hurts when someone you wanted never even saw you. i realized today that a boy i had been briefly crushing on was even more of what i wanted than i had realized. and while i perceived him as simply one content in flying solo, and chalked his disregard of me as an option up to this idea, it turns out that he had been looking for someone the whole time. and we were both looking for the same thing. but i guess to everyone around these parts i came off as little more than a boring and shallow pothead. my personality abandoned me here.
now i'm only smoking cigarettes trying to wave at street lamps through a smoky, lonely haze. and i can't stop listening to the cardigans.