i moved these from myspace blogs.
Dear Everyone I Know
I'm sick of being told I'm cold and uncaring. Robotic use to seem suitable but no, it's not. Please realize that although I don't express feelings well, something makes me human.
-Gina
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inadequacy
"I should have been something great," I thought. Should have? What's wrong with right now? Why are you lying in bed? It's 5pm. "My inadequacies," I tell myself, "are bringing me down."
Talking to yourself is frustrating.
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http://www.naughtyjames.com/
http://diggetydamn.com/
Why does inspiration fuel failure?
"At one point, I was the best."
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why my standards keep me unhappy
i'm a jealous person. we'll throw that out there so there's no confusion. what you have is what i want and what i have is nothing in comparison. my desires are completely insatiable and, for the most part, i'm just plain fickle.
i've had a good life. many things were just given to me. i'm rather intelligent, not terrible on the eyes, and surprisingly talented. when i honestly think about it, i've never worked hard, i mean really struggled, for anything i've obtained. you might be saying, "well, then you've got the good life. keep it while you can!" but, "no, quite the contrary," i'd say, "my life has become meaningless because of it." that's where i've been stuck, at this current unappreciative, whimsical state.
but i want to love. to be one of those naive, happy couples seems like bliss. i'm envious of the aforementioned for various reasons (i'm sure you can guess them as they are rather typical). however, love takes time. love takes patience. love takes risk. these are foreign to me. i waste time, i want fast solutions, and i certainly don't want to lose. after all, i am competitive...very competitive.
well, for whatever reason, i found love or it found me. i was loved wholly and truly and without a doubt. all that was asked is that i worked on it. i just needed to fix it up and make it better. i was told to build trust. instead, i lied. i was told to care and i played games. i was told to be happy but how can you be happy when you're always looking for something better? i realized too late what i should have seen all along. and now i'm back to being jealous.
-gina
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