I shall scream
I just want to scream. Why am I not over him yet? I haven't been able to even kiss anyone without thinking I'd rather be kissing him. I thought things were picking up between us, It seemed like we were reconnecting, then bam "I was blind sided by this relationship" what?..really?...and you've been together a week now and he's already meeting your parents? really? REALLY? I'm back to not falling asleep, even when I'm tired, I can't fall asleep. I dont understand why I can't just leave you behind, unlike previous times, its not getting easier. Its been 2 years now, 2 whole years, and i've seen you once in that time frame. I wish I could just get past this, and I dont know how this time. I've learned from other times how, but this time nothing is working. I feel like I'm stuck in a rut, not just with him but in other areas of life too. I'm actually happy, but extremely extremely lonely. I just need a giant punching bag