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[shouldve_didnt]

I'm back. But if I'm not mistakened, I owe some people explanations and apologies. Again

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[happyviolent]

Sensei? Are you.. okay?

[shouldve_didnt]

Mm? Don't worry; I'm alright. My head was throbbing when I came back, and I broke the rules, so I've been punished again... otherwise, I'm okay.

[happyviolent]

Are you sure? You seem.. different, like you're drifting away. Did you need anything?

[shouldve_didnt]

Maa... everything seems okay. I've really just had a lot on my mind recently. What is it that makes me seem that way? Did I miss something? I suppose if I need anything right now, I think I just need the plain and simple truth behind that alien being called Jenova.

[happyviolent]

All right... If you say so, Sensei. You just do... You seem more, something, and less something else. You just don't seem like the same teacher I knew back in Konoha. You can't find that out? Isn't there someone you can ask about that then?

[shouldve_didnt]

Maybe it's better this way... Maybe I've gotten used to life here and a life with Rikku. Things from the past suddenly don't seem as important as they used to be. I suppose that counts as slipping away or as something that you and others would be angry or upset with. I've been investigating it, but there are so many complications that keep leading me in circles. I even encountered Jenova herself, and I can rightfully say that I never want to experience something like that ever again...

[happyviolent]

Better? Maybe it is, for you guys who can forget everything. Maybe that is the way to survive, by giving in and forgetting, no? Maybe there's no point at all trying to get back home. Good luck with that then, Kakashi-san.

[shouldve_didnt]

... I'm sorry. I should've been more considerate toward your situation. Everything that's been happening lately has just been pushing me forward so quickly that I've forgotten about the things I've wanted to do for everyone else. I'm supposed to be looking for an escape from this world, a means for you and the others to go back; instead, I'm playing tag with an alien being who seems to be puppeting my girlfriend around... It's hard to tell which one should really be the priority now.

[happyviolent]

It's fine. I guess like usual, I've just fallen behind everyone else again.

[shouldve_didnt]

By no means is it your fault, Sakura. It's just that... in the end, we all wind up hurting you, don't we? And I should have realized that as we lose more memories, we hurt you because you're the only one who has avoided enough problems to keep them... and you cherish them even after I've foolishly thrown mine away.

I'm sorry.

[happyviolent]

You don't need to be sorry, Kakashi-san. I'm the one who's staying stagnant, who's not changing despite the fact that the world is changing around me. I guess I do just cling onto things too much. Too stubborn to give them up and let them go, no matter how much it tears me up inside. I should probably go looking for Naruto now, but I'm glad you're okay.

[shouldve_didnt]

He should be on the lower level, right? Do you want me to help you find him? It's probably the least I could do for you...

[happyviolent]

He should have been home, but he hasn't been. It's fine. I'll handle it on my own.

[shouldve_didnt]

Ah... but if he died, he's somewhere down here. I'm already down here and punished to remain here for a week, so if it's any help to you at all as I'm already conveniently here... then I insist.

[happyviolent]

I... Alright, but you don't have to. I'm sure you have your own things to worry about. You can do those, really.

[shouldve_didnt]

I'm going to help you. I promise. I've pretty much run into a dead end anyway, so all I can really do now about the other problems is gather information, which is basically like going back to square one. Trust me--I'll go and help you.