this new guy... so distant.....

[shouldifeel]

well i met this new guy last night at hollywood video they came up and talked to me.lol. made me feel special cause that hasnt happend to me in a long time. when i was with larry they would come up and talk to him but they always ended up talking to me.lol. but yea anyways he talked to me about stuff and stuff and he was cute lol. and as he was leaving he gave me his phone number he said he wants to hang out sometime. i was like lol. im all girly larry really wants me to date him so i can get over him. but that's not what's going to happen i'll become dependent on this new guy. so i've desided as i cried myself to sleep last night i dont want a nwe guy i need to be dependent on myself i need to get intouch with myself. that's what i need right now. but i dont know what to do. im confused this guy is cute and i want the touching the holding the love.lol but then i dont i want to be by myself right now. i hate men they fucking digust me the little piceses of shit.lol. im really confused right now. i want the newness of dating of someone getting to know him. but i know he wants to date me. i dont want to though,. i dont know sometimes i really wished i had someone to talk to or call cause larry cant help me all he tells me is. date me so you cant get out of my hair and get over me. well g2g
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