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Urgh. URRRRGHHHH. I'm in a terrible depressed funk and I can't even be bothered doing anything to help myself out of it. I don't want to leave the house or get up or wash. I haven't done it in five days, why start now? It makes me think that coming off all my pills will be a positive, as I don't thinking anything will change. I have the go ahead from the psychiatrist to come off the lithium (which will take a ridiculous 12 WEEKS to do!) and then after that everything else can go bai bai. I figure if I'm a sodding miserable git when I'm pilled to the gills I may as well take nothing and see what is really going on. I know there are many practical remedies for depression: diet, counselling, exercise etc etc but they keep changing their mind as to why I feel depressed. Bi-polar effective disorder type II with borderline personality traits or hypothyroidism/underactive thyroid?
I don't really give a toss. I want a quick fix. Namely because I'm lazy. And I'm lazy because I'm depressed. Or I'm depressed because I'm lazy. It's an odd one. I have a bloody good gig going on, a life ripe with opportunity. But I don't want to participate in it right now. I'm too sads. No offence if I haven't been replying to texts or calls, I don't feel much like talking except on my own terms. The best way to get in touch is probably through facebook, as I like that.
I would say I'm going back to bed, but I haven't left it in six days.
I don't really give a toss. I want a quick fix. Namely because I'm lazy. And I'm lazy because I'm depressed. Or I'm depressed because I'm lazy. It's an odd one. I have a bloody good gig going on, a life ripe with opportunity. But I don't want to participate in it right now. I'm too sads. No offence if I haven't been replying to texts or calls, I don't feel much like talking except on my own terms. The best way to get in touch is probably through facebook, as I like that.
I would say I'm going back to bed, but I haven't left it in six days.