i dont want to get over u
i dont want to be here.
it doesnt feel right.
in other instances it feels right.
everything about this process has felt kinda weird and ive been disjointed.
im not really enjoying the culture, im not really enjoying my work. partly coz im scared i think.
im not enjoying the people.
i miss dave. i wish he would freaking work out where he wanted to be and what he wanted to do so we could sort it out together.
i hate that he has jst written some shitty response to my emails.
i hate that he called me "nis" and didnt say "love"" and that i cant offer him what i want to. and that im so scared of eating. my back is sore. of failing. of this not taking me WHERE I WANT TO GO. it just doesnt feel right and yet i cant go home coz there is nothing professionally there for me.
"and i cant fall asleep, takes a while to settle down, it's a terrible love that im walking with, it's a quiet company"
fuck.
it doesnt feel right.
in other instances it feels right.
everything about this process has felt kinda weird and ive been disjointed.
im not really enjoying the culture, im not really enjoying my work. partly coz im scared i think.
im not enjoying the people.
i miss dave. i wish he would freaking work out where he wanted to be and what he wanted to do so we could sort it out together.
i hate that he has jst written some shitty response to my emails.
i hate that he called me "nis" and didnt say "love"" and that i cant offer him what i want to. and that im so scared of eating. my back is sore. of failing. of this not taking me WHERE I WANT TO GO. it just doesnt feel right and yet i cant go home coz there is nothing professionally there for me.
"and i cant fall asleep, takes a while to settle down, it's a terrible love that im walking with, it's a quiet company"
fuck.