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I love my son and happy hes home. However i really think think this going to make me really down fall again. I started to do a little better with ed after he leaves. It was bad enough to have one child here wanting to constanly eat now I have two. All the food, cooking, and eating is getting to me. Thank god I get a break from the anxiety when their at school. I feel like I need an Ativan when they come home. I hate and feel so guilty about it. Why can't I just fully enjoy him being home? It's been a very crazy busy day. I manage on pulling off 3 one hr appoitments and 1 12 hr. I'm exauseted and think I'll sleep good. Hopefully anyway.