Time Out.
I'm in the middle of writing my final research paper for English and I only have 3 1/2 pages done and all 3 1/2 pages SUCK... yes, I think they're the worst 3 1/2 pages I've ever written in my entire life. We've written so much on our final topic that I feel like I'm just repeating myself over and over again that I kind of get lost in my words and then I have no idea what the hell I'm saying... kind of like I'm doing right now...
Anyway, I feel like I need to get out a lot of what's been going on in my life... which is a hell of a lot. School sucks. Big surprise there, huh? I'm hoping I'll be able to survive these two weeks of school before Thanksgiving break. I just need SOME kind of break from everything really.
What else do you wanna know? I really don't have much of a life right now. It's pretty much filled with writing countless of papers (or maybe just really loooooooooong papers) and studying my ass off until I have no ass left. <----See, that's a sign of too much reading the books. As far as boys go... nope, nada, zip, zilch. It's okay though, because I don't really have time for them anyway. I will admit though, sometimes I do get lonely here and there... but I mean, who doesn't right? Or is that just me and am I totally pathetic for saying that? Eh, oh well... it happens.
Just this past year, the most crucial point that I have learned is that not everything is going to stay golden. I've come to the conclusion that I have the hardest time adjusting to changes in relationships. I mean, you do have to admit that it's at least a little bit different between all of us because we're spread all over this campus! I mean, granted... yes, we still SEE each other from time to time, but it's not the same as actually SPENDING quality time together. And to be totally honest, I still don't think I've adjusted to all this and I think it's starting to hit me all at once. I'll be the first to admit that I miss living in the dorms with everyone. It just felt comfy (although, it did help to have my own room, haha). Maybe this is all in my head and it's just a laziness factor... could very well be, but I'm thinking not so much this time. I don't know- I'll get over it though... well I'm going to have to.
Okay, I have to stop... well, because I'm tired of typing. Good job on updating though since I haven't in centuries...
That's it-
Nik
P.S. I have an innocent question to propose: But why is it always like this- The good girls get dicked over and the bad girls get everything handed to them? I'm not being biased either because I KNOW for a fact that the same goes for guys... The nice guys get dicked over and the dicks come out being #1 for being, well, dicks... what the hell is up with that? Is it just me? Or maybe this is another thing I haven't adjusted to...
Oh yeah... and I love you Amanda.
Anyway, I feel like I need to get out a lot of what's been going on in my life... which is a hell of a lot. School sucks. Big surprise there, huh? I'm hoping I'll be able to survive these two weeks of school before Thanksgiving break. I just need SOME kind of break from everything really.
What else do you wanna know? I really don't have much of a life right now. It's pretty much filled with writing countless of papers (or maybe just really loooooooooong papers) and studying my ass off until I have no ass left. <----See, that's a sign of too much reading the books. As far as boys go... nope, nada, zip, zilch. It's okay though, because I don't really have time for them anyway. I will admit though, sometimes I do get lonely here and there... but I mean, who doesn't right? Or is that just me and am I totally pathetic for saying that? Eh, oh well... it happens.
Just this past year, the most crucial point that I have learned is that not everything is going to stay golden. I've come to the conclusion that I have the hardest time adjusting to changes in relationships. I mean, you do have to admit that it's at least a little bit different between all of us because we're spread all over this campus! I mean, granted... yes, we still SEE each other from time to time, but it's not the same as actually SPENDING quality time together. And to be totally honest, I still don't think I've adjusted to all this and I think it's starting to hit me all at once. I'll be the first to admit that I miss living in the dorms with everyone. It just felt comfy (although, it did help to have my own room, haha). Maybe this is all in my head and it's just a laziness factor... could very well be, but I'm thinking not so much this time. I don't know- I'll get over it though... well I'm going to have to.
Okay, I have to stop... well, because I'm tired of typing. Good job on updating though since I haven't in centuries...
That's it-
Nik
P.S. I have an innocent question to propose: But why is it always like this- The good girls get dicked over and the bad girls get everything handed to them? I'm not being biased either because I KNOW for a fact that the same goes for guys... The nice guys get dicked over and the dicks come out being #1 for being, well, dicks... what the hell is up with that? Is it just me? Or maybe this is another thing I haven't adjusted to...
Oh yeah... and I love you Amanda.