To whoever still reads this...
Well I honestly see no point in updating like I used to. I and don't really have the time either. College is great. I love music and love what I'm doing. So this has now become what it should be. A place for me to get my thoughts organized.
Here's the topic of the day: Love
Love can be great. You find someone you love and someone who loves you back. That's everyone's goal right? After you are in this loving relationship, life is amazing. All the sweet phone calls, messages, hugs, kisses, etc. Everything is perfect. But does it last forever...no. All relationships come to an end and most of the time you can't control it. One person from the relationship falls out of love. They start to loose interest in the other person. So life sucks for both parties. Even though most people would think "no way it only sucks for the person who still cares for the other." wrong. I've been on both sides of this situation. The one who falls out of love and the one who still loves despite their partners lack of love. Both situations cannot be controlled. How can you possible control emotions? Emotions are simply hormones producing nerve impulses. So really what makes a relationship? A bunch of chemicals in our bodies? It's all so complex. Maybe one day there will be a drug you can take to change how you. Maybe a drug to make you love a certain person or type of person. Until then, it is impossible to control how you feel. We live in a dynamic world. With all these changes comes changes in how we feel. Our feelings change based on our age and experience. I find it difficult to fathom loving someone unconditionally for say 20+ years. Maybe it's because I'm young and lack the maturity to handle something like that. Although I'd love to be in a relationship where it can last that long. But I digress. Back to loving and being loved. I have explained that it is not possible for you to control how you feel and it is very possible to fall out of love. However, at the same time it is hard to accept that the one you still love does not love you. You wonder, "Where did I go wrong? What did I do?" Really, you did nothing. Nothing at all. It's amazing how one day someone can go from loving you to hating you. Well it's not really a day. But it just seems that way. How can you say you love someone and then say you don't anymore? Isn't love supposed to be forever? Maybe I've been living in the dark for so long. Maybe love is just a spur of the moment thing. But why does it hurt so much when it's gone? If it's something that comes and goes, we shouldn't expect it to stay around for a long time and shouldn't be upset when it leaves. But it hurts. It hurts beyond words when the one you love no longer loves you. Yet at the same time, it hurts when you cannot love the person who loves you. This will cause you to try to escape this person for fear of hurting them and consequently hurting yourself. You don't want to see this person upset, especially when you are the cause of their sadness. So you run away. What does that do? It only makes the situation worse. The other person gets even more upset because now the one they love isn't even talking to them, or being their friend. But the person who has fallen out of love fears coming back. Maybe the fear is due to a fear of an arugment? Or fear of the other person trying to win them back, when really they know that they cannot do this? But why, why do we fall in and out of love so quickly? Is there a time when someone just stops falling out of love? Is that when you know you found the person you're going to marry? What if that time never comes? Is this why there is divorce? Because people cannot love forever. Maybe we're not intended to love one person forever. But why do some people find it so hard or nearly impossible to get over one person? Is that the one they should be marrying? Or what if the person who loves you unconditionally isn't the person you love unconditionally? The equillibrium is thrown off. Shouldn't you love the person who loves you? Why can't "the one" for me, be the person that I am "the one" for? Love shouldn't be this complicated...but sadly it is.
Here's the topic of the day: Love
Love can be great. You find someone you love and someone who loves you back. That's everyone's goal right? After you are in this loving relationship, life is amazing. All the sweet phone calls, messages, hugs, kisses, etc. Everything is perfect. But does it last forever...no. All relationships come to an end and most of the time you can't control it. One person from the relationship falls out of love. They start to loose interest in the other person. So life sucks for both parties. Even though most people would think "no way it only sucks for the person who still cares for the other." wrong. I've been on both sides of this situation. The one who falls out of love and the one who still loves despite their partners lack of love. Both situations cannot be controlled. How can you possible control emotions? Emotions are simply hormones producing nerve impulses. So really what makes a relationship? A bunch of chemicals in our bodies? It's all so complex. Maybe one day there will be a drug you can take to change how you. Maybe a drug to make you love a certain person or type of person. Until then, it is impossible to control how you feel. We live in a dynamic world. With all these changes comes changes in how we feel. Our feelings change based on our age and experience. I find it difficult to fathom loving someone unconditionally for say 20+ years. Maybe it's because I'm young and lack the maturity to handle something like that. Although I'd love to be in a relationship where it can last that long. But I digress. Back to loving and being loved. I have explained that it is not possible for you to control how you feel and it is very possible to fall out of love. However, at the same time it is hard to accept that the one you still love does not love you. You wonder, "Where did I go wrong? What did I do?" Really, you did nothing. Nothing at all. It's amazing how one day someone can go from loving you to hating you. Well it's not really a day. But it just seems that way. How can you say you love someone and then say you don't anymore? Isn't love supposed to be forever? Maybe I've been living in the dark for so long. Maybe love is just a spur of the moment thing. But why does it hurt so much when it's gone? If it's something that comes and goes, we shouldn't expect it to stay around for a long time and shouldn't be upset when it leaves. But it hurts. It hurts beyond words when the one you love no longer loves you. Yet at the same time, it hurts when you cannot love the person who loves you. This will cause you to try to escape this person for fear of hurting them and consequently hurting yourself. You don't want to see this person upset, especially when you are the cause of their sadness. So you run away. What does that do? It only makes the situation worse. The other person gets even more upset because now the one they love isn't even talking to them, or being their friend. But the person who has fallen out of love fears coming back. Maybe the fear is due to a fear of an arugment? Or fear of the other person trying to win them back, when really they know that they cannot do this? But why, why do we fall in and out of love so quickly? Is there a time when someone just stops falling out of love? Is that when you know you found the person you're going to marry? What if that time never comes? Is this why there is divorce? Because people cannot love forever. Maybe we're not intended to love one person forever. But why do some people find it so hard or nearly impossible to get over one person? Is that the one they should be marrying? Or what if the person who loves you unconditionally isn't the person you love unconditionally? The equillibrium is thrown off. Shouldn't you love the person who loves you? Why can't "the one" for me, be the person that I am "the one" for? Love shouldn't be this complicated...but sadly it is.