& then she said...
Met up with Ella the bella the other night after work. I bet she thought I was a weirdo..."hey want too meet up I could really use a friend right now" but she committed even though she has finals at COLUMBIA damn girl! She has been traveling; to Africa & Cambodia for her Public Health major & looks amazing! We were talking about our wild times back in e-town & it made me wish I was flying home for the holidays, my sister is even graduating from Arizona State tomorrow afternoon go Susie! Sometimes I think I sacrificed so much for NYC, but its paid its dividends, I love it here, I have no regrets.
As far as the girl? I may have had a more difficult time letting her go than her me, but if you truly love someone or something you have to set it free, isn't that the term? If I truly want her to be happy I have to walk away. I respect that she was able to tell me that this just isn't what she wanted & am touched that she loved me. It was a good experience, she is a good person. Intimacy is an amazing thing when its the right person, the right time and two people really want it. In a way all I want to do is give her a really big hug and say good bye but I don't know that she owes that too me. I wish I could of sent her more flowers, kissed her forehead more and spent more time with her but all that is in the past and it will be a warm memory.
Besides, there are some pretty fish in the sea & unlimited personal opportunities for a floundering fish like me.
As far as the girl? I may have had a more difficult time letting her go than her me, but if you truly love someone or something you have to set it free, isn't that the term? If I truly want her to be happy I have to walk away. I respect that she was able to tell me that this just isn't what she wanted & am touched that she loved me. It was a good experience, she is a good person. Intimacy is an amazing thing when its the right person, the right time and two people really want it. In a way all I want to do is give her a really big hug and say good bye but I don't know that she owes that too me. I wish I could of sent her more flowers, kissed her forehead more and spent more time with her but all that is in the past and it will be a warm memory.
Besides, there are some pretty fish in the sea & unlimited personal opportunities for a floundering fish like me.