guyz! ...again

[shortie06]

wow...so things have most definately changed since i last wrote in this thing...at least with the guy situation...so i met this other guy...mario is okay but he is just sorta young for my taste and plans keep falling through with him...i dunno...but this other guy...first lemme tell u how i met him...we were at karate rite, and it had been like a really hectic day so i had forgotten to eat anything all morning and afternoon and i only had like a bottle of water before i went to karate...so i take the first class and i'm okay but then during Krav class, the second one, i start getting sick to my stomach. So this guy happened to be new to krav and so jeremy partnered me up with him cuz i usually get the new peeps since i been in krav so long...so this was the guy's first class and i was doin okay and all up until the getting sick to the stomach..then i started getting a headache and so i ran real fast and took some motrin hoping it would make it go away...actually made it worse since i hadn't eaten! oops...so then i felt like i was gonna throw up and i was shaking really badly like my hands and everything and so i told jeremy (he is the instructor, everyone is supposed to call him Mr. Moore...but i dunno if i have that much respect for him anymore) that i had to go to the bathroom and he was like "okay" so i went and sat in the girls locker room on the floor trying to stop shaking and trying not to throw up...so like half and hour later (i didn't realize it had been that long) i hear the music stop and it got really quiet...then i hear "has anyone seen miss kikuchi?" and i was like shit...then one of the mothers that takes krav walked in and saw me on the ground and was like are you okay? and then without waiting for me to respond she walks out and in the middle of everything was like "she needs to see someone" and jeremy (mr. moore) was like "is she okay" and the mother sed "no" i was like man...its not that big of a deal...so then mr moore sticks his head in (he doesn't want to come all the way in cuz its the girls locker room (which is dumb as hell)) and is like "are you okay" and i was like "yeah" and he was like okay...and left and started teaching class again...so then the new guy that had been my partner burts in (not caring its the girls locker room) and was like "whats wrong, are you okay..." and he starts asking me all these questions...turns out, he is training to be and EMT...lol..i thought that was funny. so we figured out that my blood sugar was low and i was dehydrated and taking the motrin didn't help at all...so he was real sweet and got me something to eat so i could get my blood sugar up and he gave me his bottle of water and said that he wasn't letting me leave the locker room until i had drank three of them...lol...so in the end, i meet this EMT dude who turns out to be an electrition and work at a bike shop as a second job and we start talkin and stuff and i have been partners with him every class since then. his name is matt st. john.....so obviously there has been flirting and junk and we are always messin around and stuff like that...i find out like 2 classes after my incident, that he has a little boy and he is married! but its not what you think! the marriage is a bomb and the only reason that he doesn't divorce her is because he doesn't want some strange man raising his child...so i was kinda like "whoah" but i mean, he still calls me like all the time and i seriously think that we talk more than he and his wife talk...its so weird...i don't know what to do...(oh ya, did i mention that hes 22?...not the point tho...i'm more worried about him being married with a son) i have these feelings for him cuz hes such a kool guy and hes sweet and everything! but we both know that nothing can happen...that its triple trouble (1) wife (2) son (which wouldn't be much of a problem if there wasn't a wife) and (3) i'm still sorta illegal (which i hate!!!) but i dunno..he sez stuff to me that would indicate he wants to be more than friends (and the things he sez make it very clear, so i know i'm not just imagining it) but then the triple trouble comes up again! i hate this! and then mario sort of just fell of the face of the earth for a few days so i don't even know whats going on with him! we are supposed to hook up and have him meet my parents (ya i know, my parents have been freaks about letting me hang out with guyz ever since i stayed out all nite with a bunch of them and turned my cell phone off) ...my parents even wanna meet matt! and omg matt was kool with it! hes like, "there is nothing they can ask me that i haven't already been asked" and i was like...oh ya, wife...lol....so hes gonna do that in the next couple of days....so how about class is supposed to end at like 9 rite? well matt and i end up sitting in the parking lot by his truck until like 10! just chillin and hanging out...i hate the situation...i can't really judge shauna (his wife) because i haven't met her...but he tells me that she doesn't cook, she doesn't clean up after herself, she barely takes care of the baby...(the child is 1 year and 1 month...his birthday was june 3rd) and she is always thinking of only herself...so i don't know....grrr....this situation sux man! i told matt that and he was like "yeah...i agree" deng...i needed to vent...thanx xanga! lol...so anywayz...i think imma go grab sum breakfast....err, well its more lunch now that its 12 but whatever...byez!

-smooches!-

sam kikuchi