Newsflash, yo.
Alright, I am sick and tired of feeling sorry for myself. So absolutely done with it. It's getting old.
So now the plan is simple. I find a job, I get my license, I live my life. I have a great summer with my friends. I hold my head up and refuse to let anything or anybody ruin anything for me. I can be in complete control of my decisions, including which will make me happy and those that won't. There comes a time where you have to put yourself first, and now is my chance to do it. My face is dry, and I am ready to start over. If it means I stay on Long Island, I will. And if it means I move to Florida, I will. It will take some time to figure that out, but I will. I'm prepared to give myself that time to realize what needs to be realized, regardless of how incredibly impatient I am. I need to defeat that part of my personality to be able to map out a hopeful and incredible future for myself.
I've been reading a lot of my Whitman book lately. It is unbelievably helpful at a time like this, so I suppose this gift had very good timing. Having a long period of time on your own is probably the best situation you can face reading it with. It gives you time to connect with nature, observe your surroundings, and learn something about yourself. Actually, a number of things. Well, not so much learn... more like rediscover. There's so much you can forget about when you're not yourself for a while. But I'm finding my way back.
There is so much more I want to say, but I cannot concentrate. My dad is talking my ear off again. Save me. Seriously. Save me.
So now the plan is simple. I find a job, I get my license, I live my life. I have a great summer with my friends. I hold my head up and refuse to let anything or anybody ruin anything for me. I can be in complete control of my decisions, including which will make me happy and those that won't. There comes a time where you have to put yourself first, and now is my chance to do it. My face is dry, and I am ready to start over. If it means I stay on Long Island, I will. And if it means I move to Florida, I will. It will take some time to figure that out, but I will. I'm prepared to give myself that time to realize what needs to be realized, regardless of how incredibly impatient I am. I need to defeat that part of my personality to be able to map out a hopeful and incredible future for myself.
I've been reading a lot of my Whitman book lately. It is unbelievably helpful at a time like this, so I suppose this gift had very good timing. Having a long period of time on your own is probably the best situation you can face reading it with. It gives you time to connect with nature, observe your surroundings, and learn something about yourself. Actually, a number of things. Well, not so much learn... more like rediscover. There's so much you can forget about when you're not yourself for a while. But I'm finding my way back.
There is so much more I want to say, but I cannot concentrate. My dad is talking my ear off again. Save me. Seriously. Save me.