Hmm.
It does no good to dwell
on streets that
suffocate
the stars.
To lay beneath
a widowed sky.
And the moon...
it glows a dim, silvery shade
of pity
and reaches towards me.
But i don't have the means
to embrace it.
I am too busy
lying still in the dirt.
So... I was reluctant to post this, just because I didn't think it was very well-written. But it was how I felt at the time. A little empty, and not feeling too much like myself. It just came out that way, and I had no urge to revise it. I wrote it during my visit to the house yesterday... I knew that there would be an obvious change in my relationship with one person, but not all of them. Even though I felt welcome, I felt unwelcome at the same time. I'm still trying to figure out how that is even possible. I think it's just a transition that I need to come to terms with. I think I can do it - I'm just hoping that it gets a little easier. Maybe I'm just being dramatic. I have a tendency to "go there".
I'm just a little lonely.
At least I found a way to steal internet service from the neighbors. :) I have to be outside to do it, though. And it's getting kind of cold. So... until tomorrow.
Goodnight.
on streets that
suffocate
the stars.
To lay beneath
a widowed sky.
And the moon...
it glows a dim, silvery shade
of pity
and reaches towards me.
But i don't have the means
to embrace it.
I am too busy
lying still in the dirt.
So... I was reluctant to post this, just because I didn't think it was very well-written. But it was how I felt at the time. A little empty, and not feeling too much like myself. It just came out that way, and I had no urge to revise it. I wrote it during my visit to the house yesterday... I knew that there would be an obvious change in my relationship with one person, but not all of them. Even though I felt welcome, I felt unwelcome at the same time. I'm still trying to figure out how that is even possible. I think it's just a transition that I need to come to terms with. I think I can do it - I'm just hoping that it gets a little easier. Maybe I'm just being dramatic. I have a tendency to "go there".
I'm just a little lonely.
At least I found a way to steal internet service from the neighbors. :) I have to be outside to do it, though. And it's getting kind of cold. So... until tomorrow.
Goodnight.