2:24 a.m.

[shortfuseburnig]

I don't like myself at 2:24 a.m.. To be honest, I'm really not that bad in general, but I am an absolute mess during the late-night portion of the day. I am sitting here, finally finished with the tears, and the frustration of even attempting to sleep. I am at the point where I can only stare blankly at the screen, and focus on the massive headache

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[troutsavedmylyf]

So, I can understand how you’re feeling, to an extent. And I agree that writing can make it better. But it doesn’t sound like this is going to work itself out. I hope it does, but that’s not the way it sounds. So that means you need to deal with it. Because it’s not healthy to feel the way you do, and it seems so stagnant. It doesn’t seem like you’re moving toward any sort of freedom from this feeling, it seems like you’re just sitting in it

[shortfuseburnig]

You are right, and your response got me thinking all over again. Which is something I need to do, as upset as it may make me. It's better than ignoring it. I have so many conflicting ideas of the "next step" floating around in my head - well, to be honest, they're actually ricocheting (sp? Even though I clearly know how to spell all words) like stray bullets.

And don't worry about being "preachy". You have a way of providing a certain comfort that you don't find in many places. So thank you.

:)