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i feel as though a huge weight has been lifted off my chest.
but has been replaced by emptiness.
in these days of being a high school-er things are always not what they seem.
everyone knows the system backwards, and forwards.
Go to school - graduate - go to college - graduate - get a job - get married and have kids - die
but what if there was a riff in that "system?"
what if someone decided that is not what they are going to do with the rest of their life?
would anyone notice, would you notice?
i had a really hard talk with someone today, and i feel both hurt and happy at the same time.
i just hope that it isnt the end to what i have once hoped was the start to something fun and enjoyable.
my seniors are leaving in just a few months, the ones that are going far i might never see again. the ones staying close to me i hope to see as much as possible.
i have never had to deal with anything like this.
i have had friends move away, and friends die(RIP TOMMY).
but having someone leave for college is just a very different feeling. i cant explain it well, at all for that matter.
i have a job, im a life guard, i need money to afford some plane tickets to visit a very special person when they are off in college.
love love.
P.S.
My birthday is in 12 days (MAY 13th) so i want to get some people together and do something fun...let me know if you want to join me/us.
but has been replaced by emptiness.
in these days of being a high school-er things are always not what they seem.
everyone knows the system backwards, and forwards.
Go to school - graduate - go to college - graduate - get a job - get married and have kids - die
but what if there was a riff in that "system?"
what if someone decided that is not what they are going to do with the rest of their life?
would anyone notice, would you notice?
i had a really hard talk with someone today, and i feel both hurt and happy at the same time.
i just hope that it isnt the end to what i have once hoped was the start to something fun and enjoyable.
my seniors are leaving in just a few months, the ones that are going far i might never see again. the ones staying close to me i hope to see as much as possible.
i have never had to deal with anything like this.
i have had friends move away, and friends die(RIP TOMMY).
but having someone leave for college is just a very different feeling. i cant explain it well, at all for that matter.
i have a job, im a life guard, i need money to afford some plane tickets to visit a very special person when they are off in college.
love love.
P.S.
My birthday is in 12 days (MAY 13th) so i want to get some people together and do something fun...let me know if you want to join me/us.