Fascinating....
Who knew?! Rant that was (unknowingly) public turned into a very good thing. Huh.
Emails ensued, and strangely, lots was covered, discussed, and even resolved. Truth be told, I was/am pleasantly shocked/surprised. It's obvious that I haven't been the ony one working on myself over the last few years. Seriously, it was refreshing.
Still have no interest in going back to the SCA, still have lots of issues with lots of people and their actions, but discovered it's not just me. Strangely that helped, too. *shrug*
And finding out that things that had been eating at me for a few years now, are ok to just let go. I don't feel like I'm being eaten by someone else's horrible secrets. Others know, others confronted a lot of it, and I had no idea. I just kept it and kept these things inside and let them make me more and more resentful. Thank goodness....relief. Being cryptic, yes, but trust me, while I many be mean and irrational when I'm angry, I don't do hiding things and lying well. It eats at me. If I am so bluntly honest, I expect honesty in return. So keeping your dirty secrets which are laced with horrible dishonesty, kills me. Even if it is "for the good" of others.
Ugh. YAY! Omg, yay.
So much off my chest, so much hashed out, still have my opinions about individuals, but, those are my opinions. Agree to disagree-type-stuff.
*exhale* :)
I want to clean the living room...well, I want to want to clean the living room currently, but I have NO motivation today! It's in the 40's today (after having been up in the high 70's to low 80's over the last week or two) and rainy with lots of wind. So it's the type of day you just want to curl up on the couch, or in bed, get under a blanket, and watch tv with the dog. (still getting used to that singular word....dog...not dogs)
Though I'll have a second house guest (besides the foster I still have....seriously guys, none of you want a chihuahua mix that is nothing like a full bred chi -no neurosies- that is scary smart? C'mon....I really need to find this little guy a home.) starting tomorrow evening. :) A little female pit, Chloe. I'm really looking forward to it, and REALLY hope her and Tank hit it off....but we'll see. Not gonna put much weight on that hope, because if they don't, well, she'll go back home to her foster momma. We'll see! I'll update about it later :)
Friends in the SCA are all in a frenzie getting ready for Gulf Wars, and it's amusing to see just how hectic it really is! *lol* And the realizing that it's actually _really_ nice not going through it! *lol* Packing, packing, packing, coming home, then doing mountains of laundry! Oh, my!
Have fun storming the castle!
Emails ensued, and strangely, lots was covered, discussed, and even resolved. Truth be told, I was/am pleasantly shocked/surprised. It's obvious that I haven't been the ony one working on myself over the last few years. Seriously, it was refreshing.
Still have no interest in going back to the SCA, still have lots of issues with lots of people and their actions, but discovered it's not just me. Strangely that helped, too. *shrug*
And finding out that things that had been eating at me for a few years now, are ok to just let go. I don't feel like I'm being eaten by someone else's horrible secrets. Others know, others confronted a lot of it, and I had no idea. I just kept it and kept these things inside and let them make me more and more resentful. Thank goodness....relief. Being cryptic, yes, but trust me, while I many be mean and irrational when I'm angry, I don't do hiding things and lying well. It eats at me. If I am so bluntly honest, I expect honesty in return. So keeping your dirty secrets which are laced with horrible dishonesty, kills me. Even if it is "for the good" of others.
Ugh. YAY! Omg, yay.
So much off my chest, so much hashed out, still have my opinions about individuals, but, those are my opinions. Agree to disagree-type-stuff.
*exhale* :)
I want to clean the living room...well, I want to want to clean the living room currently, but I have NO motivation today! It's in the 40's today (after having been up in the high 70's to low 80's over the last week or two) and rainy with lots of wind. So it's the type of day you just want to curl up on the couch, or in bed, get under a blanket, and watch tv with the dog. (still getting used to that singular word....dog...not dogs)
Though I'll have a second house guest (besides the foster I still have....seriously guys, none of you want a chihuahua mix that is nothing like a full bred chi -no neurosies- that is scary smart? C'mon....I really need to find this little guy a home.) starting tomorrow evening. :) A little female pit, Chloe. I'm really looking forward to it, and REALLY hope her and Tank hit it off....but we'll see. Not gonna put much weight on that hope, because if they don't, well, she'll go back home to her foster momma. We'll see! I'll update about it later :)
Friends in the SCA are all in a frenzie getting ready for Gulf Wars, and it's amusing to see just how hectic it really is! *lol* And the realizing that it's actually _really_ nice not going through it! *lol* Packing, packing, packing, coming home, then doing mountains of laundry! Oh, my!
Have fun storming the castle!